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But then again, I didn't have hot flashes and my periods were regulated.   Another picture is:   This book was in a references list in the back of the book "self love journal for women".   The highlighted indicates the yes answers. (i think)  here is the name of the book. It's probably not a book I should even be reading.  

I am wondering if anything in this picture is true?  I had an anxiety attack on Monday August 12 and it could have been a lot of things.  When I went to the doctor in Houston and my blood pressure was a little high. I remembered that anxiety attack I had in the car on the way.  Does an anxiety attack spike one's blood pressure?   Well I did deep breathing and it helped a little bit but not well.  I was still nauseated.   The trip to Houston was first it was for the tongue thing and then that all stopped and the "lip-farting" began well I would say three months ago. I can control it sometimes but I feel like I have to do that thing.  But really it all started back in 2018 with the "snorting" noise. Yeah, I know, it sounds gross.  But Dr (i don't know how he spells his name)  I know how to pronouce it though.  I did hear him say it was "mild tourettes" if my amigdala understood that right--I meant brain.  This is why I need ...

I would love to join a in person support group with people who do have selective mutism.  Now how's that for me getting out of my comfort zone?   Certainly! Here’s an example of how someone with selective mutism might take steps to get out of their comfort zone: Example: Step 1: Start Small Situation : You feel comfortable speaking at home but struggle to speak in public. Action : Begin by practicing speaking in a low-pressure environment outside your home, such as a quiet park or a small café with a trusted friend or family member. Step 2: Gradual Exposure Situation : You want to speak more in social settings. Action : Gradually increase the difficulty by speaking in slightly more challenging environments. For instance, start by ordering food at a restaurant or asking a store clerk a simple question. Step 3: Use Communication Aids Situation : You find it hard to initiate conversations. Action : Use communication cards or apps to help express your needs and gradually tran...

I will only say this one time so listen up.  I believed that and no one had to tell me ANYTHING that these things are in fact Tourette Syndrome. Am I right?   I really didn't plan on getting that stuff.  But that snorting (what i did the first time back in 2018)  and lip-farting (back in May 2014) make a lot of sense to me.  NO ONE HAD TO TELL ME ANYTHING!  I can swear to you that I did not look up back in 2018.  And Mr dummy here had pointed it out to me that I was making that noise. Thank you very much, Jason! (As I say sarcastically, well I tried to say that sarcastically--it didn't work)  Why do we get these little things or noises that pop up about well it feels like it is every five seconds?  It feels like I have to make that noise but at the same time it is aggravating to me.  Meditations and yoga helps with this sort of thing.  Actually I think yoga and aerobic exercise helps a lot better than meditation.  I love t...

Selective mutism is primarily considered an anxiety disorder rather than a form of physical pain. However, it can be emotionally and psychologically painful for those who experience it.  The intense anxiety and fear associated with selective mutism can lead to significant distress and discomfort 1 2 3 . If you’re exploring this topic for personal growth or understanding, it might be helpful to consider how anxiety and emotional pain manifest in different ways. How do you feel about the impact of anxiety on your own life? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ************************** ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Selective mutism feels like emotional pain to me. I feel like I can't speak to people or even can't find the words to say. Often, I probably do say the wrong thing by accident or even say too much.  Selective mutism feels like a lump in my throat all the time that I can't get loose no matter how much water I drink.  I'm not done with this journal prompt yet. 

I have developed something call this dam lip-fart or rasberries.  There will be a lot of  "I'm sorry" and "Excuse me".  That is about all I can do or say for right now.   A lot of the times I don't even know that I'm doing it. I feel like I have to do that--whatever that is.  It's funny but at the same time it is not funny.  It's funny but it's not funny.  I am looking it up on official sites.   I say it's from stress and anxiety.  My friend James says it's from a habit.  Who is right?   Whatever is causing me stress and anxiety, I don't doubt it.  Now I do twirl my hair around my finger but then I realized that I was losing hair when I did it though.  The last time I did twirl my hair around my finger was the Friday before Hurricane Harvey.  I twirled my hair around my finger a few times but I wouldn't doubt that something was causing me stress and anxiety when they were fixing up the house.  And ...

I wonder if it would be a good idea if I turned my bedroom into a nice living room?  I mean all I would need a sofa turned into bed, and bed turned into a sofa.  Or would it be too much of a hassle?  Well since I will never be able to afford an apartment or house.  This is all I could ever ask for in my life.   The  NKOTB - Still Kids  album is for my own personal use incase I lose everything on my computer.  Well I have the cd though but there is always that chance there could be a hurricane and someone steals it.  Well I could always buy a new one.  So I didn't think about that.  Okay, so.  I just wanted to be able to find it and get to it easier.  :)