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What I am most grateful for is having a journal to write my anxious thoughts in.  (If they even are anxious thoughts?)  And most of all grateful for having a pretty journaling pen to write with.  The thing I am uncertain about is what is an example of an anxious thought?  I googled it and it said and I know what neurotypical people will say.  "It's just an anxious thought, get over it".  :'(   This is what my mind kept thinking and I had a panic attack about it.  I have stupid panic attacks about stupid idiotic stuff! Not about about other people would think.  I would appreciate it if someone wouldn't judge this anxious thought.   " If a person dies in a house with two pet dogs and they get hungry,  the dogs would likely begin to search for food, potentially trying to access the person's food or looking for other sources of sustenance around the house , as they wouldn't understand that their owner is deceased and unable to...

When I was laying in the bed, my mind would not let me rest.  I kept thinking about how I have prediabetes and I'm 51 and maybe have 30 years left on me.  I would say that it was an anxiety attack but a neurotypical person would think that it was just a bad dream.  HOW CAN I BE ASLEEP AND HAVING A BAD DREAM WHEN I WAS WIDE AWAKE?  UGH!  I hate neurotypical people!  It was an anxiety attack and they know it!   Here is the difference between (in my opinion) of what neurodivergent and neurotypical people are.  Neurodivergent people are so smart except for Jason, and neurotypical people are so stupid.  Watch no one will understand that.  I'll tell you what......... I don't know how to do is explain that and back myself up on that because I never learned anything more than just the 12 years that I had gone to public school.