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I just spend the last two hours having an anger attack and being angry at myself for getting selective mutism.  I cried for the whole two hours.  I swear.  I was angry at myself and I'm blaming myself for getting selective mutism.  Now I am wondering if  when I got SM was trauma or abuse?  But I don't doubt it that Robert Young probably did something to me because he was an asshole and everyone knew it!  Becky Young was a family friend and Robert Young was her husband.  Ugh! My blood pressure going up.  It only goes up because the anxiety goes up doesn't it or no?  I was always told that when I ate or drank something with salt in it my blood pressure and blood sugar goes up.   When I was 3 years old, I heard Robert Young saying that he had high blood pressure and that he got it from eating too many foods or drinks with salt in them.  So I had spent years trying to avoid salt and it didn't work just because I had heard what...

 My god this is alot to do when you have special needs. Ugh!   I got this from Copilot. how to learn how to be an adult when you have special needs? Copilot Sent by Copilot: Learning to be an adult when you have special needs involves developing life skills tailored to your unique abilities and challenges. Here are some steps and resources that can help: 1.   Identify Key Life Skills Focus on essential life skills that promote independence and self-sufficiency. These include: Communication and Social Skills:   Effective communication is crucial for self-advocacy and building relationships 1 . Daily Living Skills:   Mastering tasks like cooking, cleaning, and personal hygiene is fundamental 1 . Financial Literacy:   Understanding how to manage money, budget, and save is important for financial independence 1 . Time Management and Organization:   Learning to plan and organize your day helps in managing responsibilities 1 . Health and Wellness: ...

I had a night mare of my mom falling in a pool and my sister was already in the pool. And Jason? don't say I was trying rid them because I care about my mom and sister! Jason, you ass! I am begining to think that Jason is toxic.    Here is an intepretation of the night mare that lead to me waking up screaming at 5:30 am.  What would your interpretation of this night mare be?  Would it really be a sign of codependency?  Well was the water brown and murky or blue?  Could it be in between brown and murky and blue?  So the water was a light brown to light blue and that is my final anxious answer.   I was still afraid of that night mare and laid awake.  So I set an alarm for two hours and I got up around 8am.  And the day was Sunday into Monday morning August 26 when the night mare was.  Just because it says down there it could be a sign of codependency doesn't mean it is a sign of codependency.  Am I right? But I shouldn't be ...