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I am going to make this up as I go.  If I could change my life I could maybe not have selective mutism. But would I still be stuck at home unable to move due to my anger issues?  I don't know.  I don't think that I would be able to move out and people would still think that I am looking for positive attention. I just want attention---either positive or negative. It really doesn't matter. I really want positive attention and don't really need anyone taking advantage of me.  I am really naive and gullible right now.  I will believe all that people say about me and my body.  My one question is was AJ doing just that, or not really?   I know codependency has a lot of symptoms and it is more than just one person who takes care of everyone else.  Do I have codependency in a way that I depend on the answers that people give me? Do you see the "depend" in codependency?  That is what I mean when I could maybe have codependency.  I find mysel...

Okay. I'm about to make something up. Just know that.   My day starts with meditation for 5 minutes when I get up. Then I will get a cup of coffee and have two or three cups.  I will then take walk/run for about 30 minutes.  Then I will come back have breakfast and take a shower. Then I will by then need something from the store. It's always something.  Then I come back do a 5-minute meditation and then do a journal prompt.  Well this doesn't sound very exciting but at least I am living with this.