Friday May 12, 2023 | If you could go back in time to any year, what year would you go back to and why?

I would like to go back to 2012 because I would like to reverse back to where I was and try that again to see if I can go another way at it and try something else to make people understand that I have selective mutism and that there no way that people can change that. I can't change people's minds but I can change my mind. But how?  

I would like to change the way I reacted that day of December 20th 2012. I guess I can prove to them that I can react in a different way in different situations. I couldn't change her mind no matter what if I did say anything at all. So I just kept quiet.  Why if something happens I get removed from the situation. So did my sister get herself in that situation? No she didn't. Because she knew how to handle herself. Then again my sister wasn't naive like I am. 

Mom was in a situation where granmaw was dying in the hospital and me my medication was all crazy and stopped working. I had to sit there say yes the medication was working when it really wasn't. All that was wrong was that I needed to go into the hospital for a week and get my medication adjusted. That was all. If she would have listened to that one thing. That whole thing could have been avoided and I still would have been in the apartment still.  A medication adjustment! I knew what was wrong!

Friday May 12, 2023 | What have you learned from past mistakes?

Jason said that I was running down the hall screaming in the apartment complex over there and that is why Marcy wanted me out of there.  Jason also said that I was running down the hall without a shirt on.  I don't remember doing that.  But if Jason said that I did then I did. :'(  Jason also wants to twist everything around and make it sound stupid to what people were really saying about me.  I would never walk outside without a shirt on!