On December 16, which fell on a Sunday It was raining that day. I remember I took Jordan out to pee and it started raining so I squealed and ran to get under the building's roof. I did not scream. BIG DIFFERENCE! A squeel was what I did when I saw the New Kids on the Block in concert in Houston Texas on February 10 1990 and in Oakland California on February 24, 1991. I know why do I remember everything? Well I don't remember everything. I just remember the past and forget the current or about things that happened about three days ago.
December 20 2012 was the day that granmaw was in the hospital dying. It was hard to breathe, breathing rapidly, I could not take deep breaths. it was hard to breathe. So I guess that was an anxiety attack standing in the hallway looking at granmaw in the hospital bed and almost crying? I did not have a full blown anxiety attack until I got home that afternoon. I'm crying as I write this of what happened on December 20, back in 2012. The day that Granmaw was in the hospital on December 20th back in 2012 was the day I was triggered. I did not know what to say or how to act. I was breathing heavy, I couldn't breathe properly. Was that an anxiety attack? OMG! I'm breathing heavy as I write this. I cried as I wrote this.
