I need him. I don't think I can focus on anything else other than him. I want to speak my mind but I'm afraid of my parents. I have to listen to them. Do I have to listen to them? I want to speak my mind and tell my feelings. I want to live with him but I'm afraid my mom is going to tell me that is not a good idea. Nothing will happen. Right AJ? Right?
Tuesday, February 8, 2022 - I just want to say that just because they say "don't worry about that right now, we are not dead yet". I still have this issue of I want to put this out there. I want to be like everyone else with Selective Mutism. They are keeping me inside this bubble. Just because I can't work and just because I don't have money, doesn't mean that I can't do anything. Yeah, like what are. I mean what does he plan to do? What are his feelings toward me? How is he going to support me? Yes, I'm asking questions what I think my parents will ask. It all goes back to I may have Selective Mutism but I'm certainly not stupid!!!
AJ keeps me calm when my parents get upset about something. It could be anything that I don't need to worry about but I still worry about it. I want to live life without (help me out here) What I told him they would have a sh*t! That I have a guardianship. Well it's called a guardianship in California. I don't know what it's called here in Texas. All I know is that I HATE TEXAS! TEXAS IS NOT FAIR!!! California does not care if you have money stuffed away somewhere like a trust fund. ugh! Texas found out about it and took my SSI away from me. I have Selective Mutism. I am unable to work because people don't understand. Well from what my mom has told me a long time ago. Now? I know that now more people are starting to understand a lot more. And if she knew I was writing about this in a blog, she would have a shit!!! But it's my feelings that I want to get out!!!! I want to settle this issue because I want to live my life like any other "Selectively Mute individual". It is obvious that I will always have a guardianship and someone to take care of my money. And I hope this gets across the united states. I hope this goes viral or something and gets across the news!!! I know that they will tell me to delete some of this because I could get robbed out of my money somewhere in the near future or something like that. Yes, I know there are some dishonest people out there. I am the most honest you will ever meet and people will take advantage of that, I know. AJ has told me that he has no interest in my money. He just told me that he loves me.
