Sunday November 22, 2020 | Me Jealous of other SM-ers

I am so mad that everyone else with Selective Mutism and severe depression and the cut themselves and has autism has their own apartment!!!  They must have a very, very, very, very, very rich relative that feels sorry for her that she was given money to pay for her apartment!!!!! :'(  She also has panic attacks.    I am just angry that I can't work and that no one feels sorry for me that I have Selective Mutism. What?  I am not good enough to feel sorry for?!!!!!!!!!  :'(   I am about to cut myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(  

I never really ever admitted this but I stood a few minutes more in the shower and broke down into tears because of Selective Mutism, I mean I just think I'm never going to get better. I will never find my voice.  :'(   Is there anything else I can do to help me find my voice?  Get a speech therapist or Selective Mutism specialist?  Do you know anyone who is a Selective Mutism specialist?        

I think I am going to die!! I have auditory processing disorder and Selective Mutism.  My auditory processing disorder probably caused my Selective Mutism.  I feel like I'm going to die before I can do anything else!!!!!!!!!!!  :'(