eye contact

I have noticed that I only give eye contact to the people that I know.  The that come up and talk to me like in a store or something I like look away and then answer their question all while spinning my anxiety ring around my finger. Oh that last time, I think I was in Walmart and Jason told me that someone was trying to talk to me but I swear to god I did not hear her because she was on the side that my ear clogged.  Oh ring goes with me everywhere with me except when I will have the colonoscopy.  I had two already. My first on was in April 2021. My second one was in August 2022. And my third colonoscopy will be in August 2024.   Just yesterday I put my pinky in my ear and out came some wax. Gross. But at least I can hear.  lol!  I bet if I went to the doctor and they got some hot water and sprayed in my ear and wax would pour right out of the same ear.  I believe that my ear clogging up has something to do with Auditory Processing Disorder. No, I think I was 15 when I got that brain mapping test where they put bunch of little things on my head. I can't remember what they are called.  But they diagnosed me with Auditory processing problems. And a few years down the road, I put two and two together and found out that it was called Auditory Processing Disorder.  There is no cure for APD but there are ways to cope with it. Like turning on the captions which bugs the hell out of my family but oh well it helps me and my APD.  Another way is listening to audiobooks or podcasts over and over again until I understand it.  It can be listening to it everyday not just listening over and over that day. 

My SM does not have anything to do with my Auditory Processing Disorder.  I know I don't even understand it myself and I have this condition.