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      I move through my day       with calm, trust, and enough support.

If you had no barriers, where would you want to be in life right now?  (but I do have barriers) In a Weight Watchers meeting this morning, the leader mentioned something about a walk/run program run by WW.   But the barrier is it could be clear across the state of Texas.  Or they meant that you could just get out there on your own and walk/run.  But I would want perseverance.   What would be something to believe in?  

This was a question I asked in the box on copilot. I guess it doesn't mean anything. Just wanted to see what copilot says. I guess when you pop a question in the copilot app, I heard they will give you different answers to your assorted. It's just what I heard. Not sure if it's true. I want to follow up on that question to see if this is true. I still can't identify any patterns that I have. Can my nervous system be stuck in a pattern of what my dad said to me back in the 80's? He told me "you don't want to disappoint mom do you"? I would like to think that I was 5 or 6 years old because my parents were separated at the time I think. Saturday February 14, 2016 | Yesterday I was writing a journal prompt about patterns and what people have told me when I was younger. And just today our weight watchers meeting well someone had shared something that someone had told her. That was horrible words do hurt and your nervous system gets it stuck in yo...

  what does that mean when you feel guilty resting unless everything is done? When someone feels guilty resting unless everything is done , it usually means their nervous system has learned a very specific rule: “Rest must be earned.” Here’s what that actually means beneath the surface. 🌿 What “guilty resting” really signals 1. Your brain treats rest as a reward , not a basic need Instead of seeing rest as something every human requires, you may feel like: you have to finish the list first you must prove you’ve worked hard enough you need to justify taking a break It turns rest into something conditional. 2. Your nervous system is stuck in “go mode” If you grew up or lived in environments where: being productive kept you safe being helpful kept the peace being still led to criticism being busy earned approval …then your body learned that slowing down is risky. So when you rest, your system fires off alarms: “You’re falling behind.” “Someone will be upset.” “You should be doing som...

I felt (and even now) that all of these are when I shut down when well this is involuntary.  But family plus family friends and some strangers have also said these things and even quite often said "won't talk".  When really it is Can't talk and unable to move.   mouth won’t move throat feels tight words disappear mind goes blank body feels frozen or stuck The fight-or-flight response somehow kicks in and I shutdown and can't talk.