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Does it count those people who are online?  Or are they not real people?  I am the only one who understand them.  Every why question needs to have a good answer.  Since I am unable to produce a good answer, then I am not going or doing anything because it will not be safe.  That is my mom's anxiety not mine.  They don't want to take me anywhere although the thought has crossed my mind back in 2014 and 2021.  They just want to be good friends.  I guess that is what ruins a relationship is jealousy.  

🧠 What it really means when an adult child with selective mutism still lives with their parents in their 50s The situation itself is far more common than people realize, especially for adults with selective mutism, autism, nervous‑system sensitivity, or trauma‑based freeze responses . It does not mean immaturity, “failure to launch,” or that the person “never grew up.” Those are social misunderstandings , not reality. Here’s the real picture. 🌿 1. Selective mutism is a nervous‑system disability , not a maturity issue Adults with SM often have: freeze‑based communication blocks difficulty initiating speech under pressure sensory overwhelm cortisol spikes during unpredictable interactions a need for predictable, safe communication environments None of these are “childlike.” They are physiological , not psychological. Living with parents often happens because the world is not designed for people who communicate non‑verbally or freeze under pressure. 🏠 2. Living with parents at 50+ o...

I remember once telling my mother “no,” and all she said was, “don’t say ‘uh-uh’ to me.” I must have been around 4 or 5 at the time. Another memory is when I asked if my childhood best friend Jennifer could spend the night, and my mom replied with “sorry, Charlie.” I never really understood that phrase, but I always assumed it meant no, maybe just to keep me safe. Jennifer and I used every sheet in the house to build tents, once filling the entire room. When I was about 5 or 6, my parents divorced. Interestingly, I had been diagnosed with selective mutism at age 4, and I sometimes wonder if that had anything to do with it.

I used to think when I was three I wanted a house, cat and but now I don't know.  Since I am unable to live by myself, that is out of the question.  Then I wanted to be an actress after I was in that play.  That is out the question too since I brought it up again when I was 13.  People have told me you got to be able to speak to do that.  People have already told me that I am unable to speak.  

Yes, I have been attacked by an animal.  It was my sister's best friend's dog--but it was still an animal.  I believe that I was 5 years old, and around the same time I got my tonsils taken out.  And furthermore, there was something wrong with my nose and the doctor put a bandage on my nose.  I remember there was a bandage on my nose at 5 years old.  I am wondering if the dog bite would trigger selective mutism in me?