Thursday April 2, 2026 | Who had the biggest impact on your life and how? I don't know how

I would have to say that Jason and AJ and Melissa have had the biggest impact -- well regarding my selective mutism.  AJ is patient and waits for an answer while I have to work on Jason a little bit.  

I could say this over and over and over.  Selective mutism is a severe anxiety disorder where a person who is normally able to speak, physically is unable to speak in specific social situations or to specific people.  It is when they are comfortable that they are able to speak.  

Wednesday April 1, 2026 | What have you learned today?

I have learned today that you don't have sciatica unless your doctor tells you otherwise.  I do also say what people want me to say.  I guess this is all normal?  I learned that just about everything is normal these days.  Well I did have the symptoms, but I guess it wasn't good enough.  I was also told that I don't eat right.  But that's okay.     

Monday March 30, 2026 | "Life is our greatest teacher". List the ways this is true for you.

I am not sure.  

Monday March 30, 2026 | Is there something you'd like to learn? How will you ensure this happens?

I would like to unlearn something I learned about anxiety and perimenopause and menopause.  Jason told me to just basically ignore symptoms of anxiety and perimenopause and menopause.  He basically said that I blame everything on anxiety.  I say, no one ever has to be in pain the rest of their life.  I don't know for sure that muscle pain is a symptom of anxiety and muscle pain is also a symptom of perimenopause and menopause.  

Friday March 27, 2026 | Journal Prompt | What brought you joy as a child and how can you incorporate those joyful moments into your day?

I remember this one time when I had these fisher-price little people when I was 2.  My sister and I 

were playing with them together on the floor of the house over on Broadmoor.  I was also playing 

with these weeble wobbles when I was about 9 or 10 years old.  I played with strawberry shortcake.

I once set up my binder from school to make it look like it is there house.  

I wouldn't want to incorporate that into my day.  Once or twice in my late 20's I walked down to the park about a mile down the road from my parents house, I walked down to the park and swung on the swings when they had swings.  Now they took every swing out and put in that stupid frisbee golf net thingys for a very stupid reason!  They were afraid that someone would get hurt on them.  People only get hurt on swings when they are not safe with them.  

Thursday March 26, 2026 | Faced with discrimination? No

I haven't been faced with discrimination.  I will never be able to take action because of my

severe anxiety.  I will never be able to step outside the door because of my severe anxiety disorder.

I am trying to make everyone around me happy.  

Tuesday March 24, 2026 | Going Viral | Selective mutism | 52-year-old

Here are the ideas what I want to write about.  

I lived over 50 years without knowing why my voice shutdown--and here is what I learned.

5 things people misunderstood about selective mutism in adults.

1) They think they know about selective mutism when clearly they do not.

2) They still do not understand anxiety attacks.

3) People tell me what selective mutism really is when clearly they do not have a clue what SM is.

4) They try to tell me what the definition of selective mutism is when clearly they do not know.

5) 

How I learned to speak up after decades of shutdowns?   Calm, Clear voice--that's your superpower!