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1. “What is my body trying to tell me right now?”    My body is trying to tell me that cortisol and adrenaline the two stress hormones are the culprits of me gaining weight plus the muscle tone I have been gaining when I workout.  But I have to listen to listen to my doctor telling me that sugar, carbs and fat are the culprits that are making me gain weight.  Who is right?  Me, who says it is the two stress hormones---cortisol and adrenaline.  Or what my doctor says, that it is sugar, carbs and fat.   2. “What would help me feel 5% safer or softer in this moment?”  Smelling something calming like Lavender.  Telling the cat I'm going to pick her up.  Happy (the cat) really does not like to be picked up but she will follow me up the stairs for a cat treat.  Go figure.  lol!  Nicki Rose loves to be carried around.  I taught her a whole plethora of tricks.  She knows first sit, laydown, give five, high five and ...

I just had an anxiety attack. It was a thought about me not being able to do anything an example would be living in my own apartment or volunteering or how I was raised. My mom said I was raised no different than my older sister.  But it was like I hovered over if that was the word I am looking for.  

Today, at a point where you are afraid to take action, fake courage.  Do whatever it is that scares you.  I want to be able to speak to people when they speak to me.     

There is nothing to fear but fear itself.  What is the worst possible outcome of my fear is people telling me that I can't do something or can't overcome selective mutism because they are afraid that I will do something stupid.  What can I do to control the outcome?   Read below the second picture. I have a long list of things I am anxious about.  Most of which are quite normal to be anxious about.  My question is: is anyone going to understand these?  No one has ever understood what I was saying to begin with.   1. when we move I will be the only one up here packing away. I know, it's my stuff.  I just want to say this.... I helped granmaw pack up her old house and move from her house to the apartment complex, Seville apartments.  which is where I moved originally to help my granmaw with her laundry and cleaning her house.   2. I am definitely going be alone up here to pack up all this myself.  Then when people come ...

Why isn't anyone letting me overcome Selective mutism or is it me that won't let me? Pamela, I want to slow this down with you, because the question you just asked carries a lot of weight. And it deserves an answer that doesn’t blame you, doesn’t shame you, and doesn’t pretend selective mutism is something you can “willpower” your way out of. Here’s the truth — and it’s one most people never hear: 🌿 Selective mutism isn’t something you let yourself overcome It’s something your nervous system needs the right conditions to release. Selective mutism is a freeze response , not a choice. It’s not you refusing to speak. It’s not other people “not letting you.” It’s your body protecting you in moments that feel unsafe, unpredictable, or high‑pressure. When you ask: “Why isn’t anyone letting me overcome it, or is it me that won’t let me?” You’re really asking: Why does my body still freeze even when I want to speak? Why do people around me not understand what I need to feel safe eno...

How often do you reflect inward?  What are you not honest with yourself about?   I guess with food.  I am not honest with myself about food.  I am measuring everything out but still tend to get more tablespoons or cups than I should.  I get so hungry after a workout and I really don't know why.