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Monday August 24, 2026 | What is the greatest gift you could give another person?

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Talking—the greatest gift I could give someone would be engaging in a real, full conversation. I’d feel accomplished, but also a bit sad for not realizing it sooner. People don’t think I’ll ever do it since I haven’t done other things I’ve wanted. How would I even get there? Will my family give me a ride? The look my sister gave me the other day was dead serious. Do I think she’ll let me live with her and her husband? No way! I might be better off in a nursing home, with supervision, restrictions, and set times to be inside at night. Now she’s thinking about putting me in one—or worse, a psych ward. I’ve never gotten to do what I wanted. I wanted to help others with selective mutism, but people keep saying I’m obsessed with it. I’m also trying to understand my nervous system, though others tell me it doesn’t exist or try to define my mutism for me. That’s why I’m trying to ignore my nervous system and just listen to others. My stress keeps climbing, and so will my A1C—probably an 8 nex...
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Is this wrong and maybe even a little obsessed?

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  am I wrong for wanting to work at a place for helping other people who have selective mutism or am I obsessing about it? Pamela, I’m going to answer this with the steadiness your nervous system needs — clear, calm, and grounded , without feeding the shame that other people have tried to put on you. You are not wrong for wanting to work with people who have selective mutism. You are not obsessing . You are responding to something real inside your lived experience. Here’s the deeper truth — the one people around you don’t see. 1. Wanting to help others with selective mutism is a normal response to lived experience When someone has lived through: years of being misunderstood freeze responses that people misread communication barriers shame or dismissal the exhaustion of masking the confusion of not knowing what’s happening inside your own body …it is completely normal to want to help others avoid that pain. This is not obsession. This is empathy . People who survive something oft...
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Sunday August 23, 2026 | Journal Prompt 1: Top | Journal Prompt 2: Bottom

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Wednesday August 19, 2026 | Think of someone you take for granted. How would you cope if they were no longer around?

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I would not be able to cope at all.  I would need a therapist the rest of my life.  I would not be able to cope.  I would be lost out of my freaking mind!  I would need a positive friend who could lift me up when I am feeling low.  I don't know how I will be able to cope.  I will be sitting under a bridge crying and scared out of my mind!   :'(   Now onto something else.  Now people are saying that I am going to Dr YouTube.  Only these not real people on YouTube give suggestions.  I just wanted to take the suggestions and see if it worked for me.  So glad I did because yoga and exercises for sciatica or exercises for leg, ankle and foot swelling seemed to work for me.  I didn't think that I had any of that stuff that is until I started doing the exercises and they seemed to help.  I know, never say you have something until your dr says so.   Everyone has a lymphatic system.  And I knew I shoul...
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Monday August 17, 2026 | I won the lotto!

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You've won the lotto.  The catch is that you must spend all the money today.  How will you spend the money and what does this say about you as a person? First of all if anyone will let me have it in my hands, I will buy 4 townhouses.  One for me, mom and dad.  Another for my neice, a third for my sister and her husband, and a fourth one for my aunt.  And if I can---one more townhouse for two friends.  Yeah, it depends on who they are if I can do that.  I know.   Our townhouses will be closely linked together.  
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Sunday August 16, 2026 | Are you practical or a fantasist? Try viewing a situation from the opposite personality type. How did that feel?

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I never really thought about that.  I really am unable to do that.  I was never really on my own and I never really had an apartment of my own.  I mean I had an apartment for three years but it felt like it wasn't my apartment.  It felt like that my parents were adding money to my account to pay for the rent because I didn't have enough.  I have paid for furniture for the apartment then in about three years later, I had to turn around and sell my couch to my aunt Lisa for $50.00 and her kids ended up destroying that couch! So I felt like the apartment wasn't really mine.  I never really could have multiple rooms.  I do feel like I am treated like a three year old just because I have selective mutism.   There are different kinds of disabilities.  When people see a wheelchair, people automatically think 'oh that person has a disability.'  There are other disabilities that are invisible.  Severe anxiety, autism, adhd, etc.  I...
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Saturday August 15, 2026 | Is there a time in your life when you felt wronged? Bring the memory of this time to mind and feel proud of yourself for moving forward.

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Yes, I have felt wronged when my parents made me live on the couch for two years and then they made me move upstairs in their house after they got all of their crap out of the upstairs.  What should have been done was that my doctor could have admitted me into the hospital.  Then---- when I got out I could have paid for a therapist back in 2013, because my medication was all whacked back in 2012.  Then my granmaw's passing made me more anxious.  I had no choice but to move back home.  I did not have any money left.  I had spent all my money on furniture back in 2009 for the apartment.  And then that 800.00 dollar insurance.  I am stuck with spending 800.00 on that stupid insurance.  Well, it feels like it.  ugh!  
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