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I’ve made it through life with selective mutism and just 12 years of schooling. Learning has always been the toughest thing for me to grasp, and at times, I feel like I haven’t learned much at all. Still, over the years, I’ve come to understand more about myself from what others who have noticed in me.

I remember one childhood memory when I was at my Granmaw's house.  I was about three years old.  Standing by my Granmaw's house and 

Yeah I made that mistake on December 20, 2012.  I kinda had to agree on it because I was in no position to make decisions regarding my mental and physical health.  I had failed to stand up for myself.  I knew that I needed to go into the hospital.  She did not believe me.  I tried to tell my mom that my medicine was going haywire on me, but she would not believe me.  My mom kept telling me that I wanted off all my medications.  I am sorry but that is the dumbest thing that she has ever said.  No, that could not be further from the truth.  I wanted to tell my doctor that my medications were not working anymore and to be put on new medications that would work.  I wasn't sure how to phrase it.  That was in December 2012.  

Does it count those people who are online?  Or are they not real people?  I am the only one who understand them.  Every why question needs to have a good answer.  Since I am unable to produce a good answer, then I am not going or doing anything because it will not be safe.  That is my mom's anxiety not mine.  They don't want to take me anywhere although the thought has crossed my mind back in 2014 and 2021.  They just want to be good friends.  I guess that is what ruins a relationship is jealousy.  

🧠 What it really means when an adult child with selective mutism still lives with their parents in their 50s The situation itself is far more common than people realize, especially for adults with selective mutism, autism, nervous‑system sensitivity, or trauma‑based freeze responses . It does not mean immaturity, “failure to launch,” or that the person “never grew up.” Those are social misunderstandings , not reality. Here’s the real picture. 🌿 1. Selective mutism is a nervous‑system disability , not a maturity issue Adults with SM often have: freeze‑based communication blocks difficulty initiating speech under pressure sensory overwhelm cortisol spikes during unpredictable interactions a need for predictable, safe communication environments None of these are “childlike.” They are physiological , not psychological. Living with parents often happens because the world is not designed for people who communicate non‑verbally or freeze under pressure. 🏠 2. Living with parents at 50+ o...