Monday February 2, 2026 | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for Self-Care and Stress Relief

What do you notice in the here and now?  Are you living in the present?  

No. I am not living in the present.  I am living in the past and the future.  

Saturday January 31, 2026 | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for Self-Care and Stress Relief | When we let go of anxiety and sadness what are we left with?

When we let go of anxiety and sadness what are we left with?

We are left with nothing more than being happy.  Apparently people don't want us to feel happy.  They want us to feel sad all the time by telling us that everything is impossible.  

Friday January 30, 2026 | Weighted Vest

I have a question about weighted vests.  I know weighted vests work for workouts and in peri/and menopause but does a weighted vest work for anxiety?  I have a weighted blanket.  Oh and did anyone know that this body wash called muscle for muscle pain in eucalyptus and one called aches and pains and it's in Lavender and Chamomile.  I try to avoid eucalyptus as much as I can as for me it triggers an anxiety attack.  Both of those body washes has menthol in it so it's great for muscle pain after an intense workout or for menopausal hot flashes.  Peppermint essential oil also helps for menopausal hot flashes and headaches.  Let this be a warning... never put peppermint on your temples on the side of your head. Use a carrier oil and spray a bit of peppermint on the back of your neck.  

Thursday January 29, 2026 | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts: For Self-Care and Stress Relief

Small subconscious actions compound to make you the person you are.  How could your life change if you become mindful of these actions?  I took a mindful shower this morning and tried to relax as the warm water went down my muscle pain body.  Does anxiety cause full-body muscle pain from head to toe?  I eat a mindful breakfast, Lunch or dinner.  I eat slowly and savor every bite while everyone else around me eats way too fast.  This is why everyone else is overweight.  I was eating so slowly for years and still this weight gain happened.  (laughs) Why?   They don't have signal to their brains that tells them to "stop your full!"  But they are thinking, It just taste so good and they don't want to waste food at a restaurant.  Men can lose weight 10X faster than women can.  That is just not fair!  

Not sure what this means but I like this quote.  "Take great pleasure in simple actions".  

Let's see?  I meditate to keep my immune system and nervous system calm.  I exercise moderately.  I eat semi-healthy.  I have one cheat day on Saturday.  

The night before my lab work, I had an anxiety attack and a peri/menopausal hot flash at the same time.  I had to turn on the a/c when it was 30 degrees outside.  

Thursday January 29, 2026 | Night-Before-Labs for a good blood fasting blood sugar reading | Let's remember this for next time

 

🌙 Night‑Before‑Labs Checklist for Stable Fasting Blood Sugar

✔️ Dinner (2–4 hours before bed)

• Choose a steady, fiber‑rich meal:

  • Oatmeal with chia or flax

  • Beans + vegetables

  • Lentil soup

  • Whole‑grain toast with nut butter

  • Greek yogurt with berries

• Avoid heavy, greasy, or sugary meals.

• Don’t skip dinner — it can trigger overnight glucose spikes.

✔️ Hydration

• Drink water normally throughout the evening.

• Avoid alcohol — it can raise fasting glucose and disrupt sleep.

✔️ Nervous System Calm‑Down

• Warm shower or bath

• Gentle stretching

• Slow breathing

• Weighted blanket

• Quiet, predictable wind‑down routine

• Avoid stressful conversations or overstimulation

✔️ Sleep Prep

• Aim for a consistent bedtime.

• Keep lights low and screens minimal.

• If sleep isn’t perfect, stay calm — nervous system stability matters more than hours slept.

🌅 Morning‑Of Checklist

✔️ Before Leaving

• Drink a small amount of water if allowed.

• Move slowly — no rushing, no fast walking.

• Avoid exercise before labs.

• Bathroom habits do not affect blood sugar:

  • Peeing does not change glucose

  • Pooping does not change glucose

✔️ At the Clinic

• Sit quietly for 5–10 minutes before the draw.

• Relax your shoulders and jaw.

• Breathe slowly to keep cortisol low.

⭐ What Actually Affects Your Fasting Number

• Stress or anxiety

• Poor sleep

• Rushing or physical exertion

• Pain or muscle tension

• Dehydration

• Skipping dinner

Bathroom habits do not affect glucose.

Wednesday January 28, 2026 | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts: For Self-Care and Stress Relief | Physical Health | Blood Sugar

We are mindful when we are aware of our thoughts.  What thoughts are presents now?  

Right now I am thinking about my blood sugar as I am going to have a blood test in the morning. Oh this is triggering, why does everyone automatically think it is my weight that is making my blood sugar shoot up through the roof.  Well maybe not through the roof--that was exaggerating.  Okay last year it was a little higher than normal but not high enough to be classified as diabetes.  My doctor had me cut out sugar and fat.  Why does everyone say it is my weight?  Does anxiety spike blood sugar?   

Tuesday January 27, 2026 | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for Self-Care and Stress Relief

Allowing yourself to let go of whatever it is that is stressing you.  Invite sensations of peace and equanimity to fill your idea space.  

I, and I alone, am responsible for everything I think and feel.  I can do anything that I want, it just has to be within reason.  I choose how I feel today.  

I just remembered an event at Becky and Robert Young's house.  Well I peed myself in the grocery store where we were at.  I was about 3 and 4 years old.  Either Becky or Robert made me sit in the corner.  I'm sure they had a very good reason for doing what they did.  Hold it!  I believe my selective mutism started at what.... 3 and 4 years old.  So when I was 2 years old I was fine.  I just had to come back here and tell about this one little part.  It wasn't until I got to preschool is when the selective mutism started.  That is when I was probably away from mom and dad for a couple of hours at preschool?  That is when probably I have had separation anxiety?  That is the theory I am getting.  Yeah, definitely I was in preschool when selective mutism started.  I am thinking that my auditory processing happened like before I was born.  

Saturday January 24, 2026 | The Idea Space | 100 mindful Prompts for Self-Care and Stress Relief | What are you ready to move on from?

First off I am ready to move on from selective mutism.  It's like drowning in anxiety and staying submerged in it and people not letting me recover from it.  But lately people have been backing off and letting me handle what would call it light speaking.   

Friday January 23, 2026 | Journal Prompt | What do I do when someone takes advantage of me?

This is what I found when I asked this question to copilot.  I think that is some good shit.  I might want to be careful as I don't trust myself and I don't trust what google, Alexa or copilot gives me answers to. Please note that they are an AI.  All three of them help me with my communication tremendously!  Name someone with either autism or selective mutism or any anxiety disorder that AI has also helped them with their communication.   I promise that I will not take it to heart.  You can answer this question if you want to.  I would love to hear all responses as all responses are welcome.  

what do I do when a person takes advantage of me?

When someone takes advantage of you, the most important thing is to shift from reacting emotionally to responding with clarity and boundaries. You don’t have to confront them dramatically or cut them off immediately — you just need to reclaim your power in a steady, grounded way.

Here’s a clear, practical way to handle it.

1. Pause and name what’s happening

Before doing anything outwardly, get honest with yourself:

• What exactly did they do

• How did it make you feel

• What pattern is repeating

Naming it helps you stop doubting yourself.

2. Check the pattern, not the moment

One incident can be a misunderstanding. A pattern is exploitation.

Ask yourself:

• Do they only reach out when they need something

• Do they ignore your needs

• Do they guilt‑trip you

• Do you feel drained after interacting with them

If the answer is yes, you’re dealing with a pattern.

3. Shift your behavior before you say anything

This is the safest and most effective first step.

Examples:

• Take longer to respond

• Say “I can’t today” without explaining

• Stop volunteering help

• Don’t rescue them from their own choices

People who take advantage usually react quickly when the “benefit” disappears — that tells you everything.

4. Set a boundary that protects your energy

A boundary is not a fight. It’s a limit.

Examples:

• “I’m not able to do that for you.”

• “I can help with X, but not Y.”

• “I don’t loan money.”

• “I’m not available right now.”

Short. Calm. No over‑explaining.

5. Watch their reaction

Their reaction tells you who they are.

Healthy people:

• respect your limit

• adjust

• don’t punish you

People who were using you:

• get angry

• guilt‑trip

• withdraw

• try to manipulate you

Their reaction is information, not a reason to back down.

6. Decide how much access they get going forward

You don’t have to cut them off completely. You can:

• limit contact

• keep conversations surface‑level

• stop sharing personal information

• stop doing favors

• keep interactions short and neutral

You’re allowed to protect yourself without making a big announcement.

7. Strengthen your internal boundary

This is the part most people skip.

Tell yourself:

• “My needs matter.”

• “I don’t owe anyone unlimited access.”

• “I’m allowed to say no without guilt.”

People stop taking advantage when you stop being available in the ways that enable it.

If you want, I can help you:

• identify the specific pattern this person is using

• craft a boundary statement that fits your personality

• figure out how to distance yourself without drama

• understand why you were vulnerable to being used (in a compassionate way)

Just tell me which direction you want to go.

Wednesday January 21, 2026 | Journal Prompt | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for self-care and stress relief | What can you do tomorrow to become a better version of yourself?

What can you do tomorrow to become a better version of yourself?

I can say "I am" affirmations to make me a better version of myself.  I am hoping it could.  It is much easier to judge other people than yourself.  People can talk themselves out of something just because of other people.  

Tuesday January 20, 2026 | Timeline | Journal Prompt

 1977 - three years old.  I remember that Becky and Robert Young baby sat me, Karin and my aunt Lisa.  So I guess when I was 3 years old my aunt Lisa was about 10 and my sister Karin was about 8 years old.  I also remember that Becky and Robert Young just had a mattress on the floor and Becky and Robert's kids Amy and James would never sleep in their beds up in their rooms.  They would always sleep on the bottom floor in Becky and Robert's room.  They all lived in Lumberton Texas.  

Something happened at school and wouldn't ask to go to the toilet.  I was scared that they would hear my voice as all individuals with SM are afraid.  But I did learn a trick.  When I don't look at the person when I am speaking or when I am upstairs.  Oh I told myself that I would get myself a reward if I yelled from upstairs all the way downstairs.  So I got myself a top and capri denim leggings.

1978 - I was about 4 years old.  When us kids, well it was mainly Amy and James acting up and Robert drove down 11th street and told us kids to get out of the car or something like that.  Well Robert tried to drop us off at vacant lot. There was no house there. Well there could have been a house there, maybe a small house.  Robert also told us that a witch lived there.  Joking or not he shouldn't have done that because it scared the crap out of me!  

1979 - I was 5 years old.  Bullying.  Entering kindergarten at Willbanks Elm. (the building is now the BISD office)   I can remember me standing outside of Kindergarten class and could haven very well been wearing a yellow dress but I don't know.  I remember this red headed kid named Paul Beaumont. I liked him a lot but didn't know how to tell him.  Yes, I had a kindergarten crush.  His sister was Jennifer Beaumont.  I didn't know how to read well.  So I do remember my mom carrying hooked on phonics boxes up to the house on Broadmoor street.  There was this dog named TJ and it was Donna's dog. Donna was my sister's best friend.  I would scream and yell according to my mom and sister and apparently TJ the dog didn't like that.  One day my sister Karin let me in the gate where she was and TJ bit me on the nose.  Still to this day, I have the scar.  I heard my mom saying to Karin that day keep an eye on your sister.   Then I got my tonsils out about the same time.  

1980 - I was 6 years old.  First grade.  Bullying. 

1981 - I was 7 years old.  Second grade.   Still bullying until my childhood best friend, Jennifer Ash came along and got me a bodyguard, Robin Hickman.  Yes, I do remember them.  Jennifer is a friend on Facebook.  

1982 - Third grade.  I think I was about 8 years old.  Bullying.

1983 - 4th grade and was about 9 years old.  Bullying.  I was put in the hospital in Galveston Texas because of Selective Mutism.  

1984 through to about 1985 - I was still in the hospital.  A little bit of bullying with this black kid named Leeroy.  He tried to rape me even with my clothes on.  Well I was the only girl there in the hospital.  

1985 - I went into middle school at 11 years old.  Bullying continued.  Someone said that I would go all the way on a first date. Not true.  Then someone said that I bit someone's sister.  Again, not true.  

  

Monday January 19, 2026 | Journal Prompt | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for Self-Care and Stress Relief

Greatness is always in the moment of the decision.  I do workout and stream TV and stream my workouts.  No small decision I make today will break me.  I will tend to my thoughts and feelings.  I am grateful to be alive and well for the most part.  

Today I had an anxiety attack.  It was about my bathtub leaking.  Question.  Has anyone ever had a thought about moving and a thought comes saying that someone to duck someone else when they are helping then pack to move or getting rid of some stuff and they quit just because it got hard or overwhelming to think about....?  

Wednesday January 14, 2026 | Journal Prompts | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for Self-Care & Stress Relief

I don't read to know more about something but to understand other people.  I love to read about anxiety disorders, selective mutism, Autism and ADHD.  I don't think that I have ADHD per say.  I do things that just make it look and feel like ADHD.  It does not mean that I have ADHD.  Some people are so wrong about what I say or think.  Now autism I do think I have a bit of mild autism called Asperger's Syndrome.  I have the symptoms.  It's hard for people see that in me since I can't be me.  

A person can't know everything, but they can always learn more.  What are you happy knowing?  It would be nice to know what was causing me to not be able to initiate a conversation with people.  Or is that normal to not able to do that?  

What do you wish you understood more?  Yes, I do wish that I understood people a lot more.  It would be certainly helpful if people had captions on their forehead.  Sometimes I do imagine that they do have captions on their forehead.  I certainly do really well on one-on-one conversations depending on the person and how they know how to talk to me in a way that helps me to speak more.  But lately I can more or less talk with 2 people in the conversation and that my dear is the sliding in technique in selective mutism.  That is what I need to ask people to do and then allow me some time for me to answer.  

Tuesday January 13, 2026 | Journal Prompt | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for Self-Care and Stress Relief

I am thinking that all I gain from others words is when my subconscious mind picks up what my brain does not hear.  That is what I maybe think what my auditory processing is like to me.  

What I love to read about is anxiety disorders.  

Saturday January 10, 2026 | What is on my mind? | Stray Cat called asshole

We had a stray cat that would wonder the neighborhood and beat up on other cats in the neighborhood including my babygirl Happy.  I nicknamed him asshole because of that.  Well this afternoon, asshole crossed the rainbow bridge.  I was sorry that asshole cat went a slow and painful death.  In the end, he was all sweet and well, that was because um... he was really sick.  I believe that something got asshole probably another cat or maybe a raccoon?   Not Midnight because he is really sweet.  Midnight is an all black cat short hair.  I just can't let a cat or even a dog go hungry or without vet care.  But no one had the money to take asshole or even Midnight to the vet.  But those cats were mean to my Happy.  

I would like to say that this event was really triggering to me.  I just don't like to see a dead cat.  It is sickening that people don't take proper care of their cats or dogs.  

Happy only hangs out with Sophie and Nicki Rose out in the back yard.  Happy is Nicki Rose's bestie.  Happy came wondering up after I adopted Nicki Rose from the pound.  I had to rescue Nicki Rose as she was tied to a park bench in south park with two other dogs.  With those gunshots going off, I can imagine that Nicki is terrified every time that there is a storm or twice a year with fireworks in the neighborhood-- 4th of July and New Years Eve.  And Beaumont Animal Care failed to say that Nicki also had heartworm.  I took very good care of Nicki and nursed her back to health.  

Well Happy will be at ease now that asshole has crossed the rainbow bridge.  Come to think of it---I did hear a cat fight last night.  It sounded like it was near my window.  I dislike cat fights!  It scares the sh*t out of me.  I remember this one time my cat Mr Kitty had brought in another cat and that cat fought with Mr Kitty.  The reason that I named Mr Kitty was because my sister had an all-black fluffy cat named Ms Kitty and I couldn't think of any other names other than Mr Kitty.  

 

Friday January 9, 2026 | Journal Prompt | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts for Self-Care and Stress Relief

What is one thing you think is true that everyone thinks is false?

Just because something is not known, doesn't mean that it is not true.  Just because someone said that it is not true doesn't make anything false.  What does that even mean?   Some days I can speak and other days I can just talk someone's ear off.  I know that seems weird for me since I don't talk much.  It is the selective mutism that chooses when I can speak.  I do not choose when I can and can't speak.  Just ask any selective mutism individual and they will tell you if they are able to speak.   When we are comfortable around people and it is not a stressful environment, we just pop up and speak and it just shocks the heck out of those around us who know about our SM.  Is that correct?  

The above picture is what I thought first hand at what selective mutism was by experience before anyone ever, ever told me.  

Thursday January 8, 2026 | Journal Prompt | The Idea Space | 100 Mindful Prompts | For Self-Care and stress relief

Being human means that there will always be one thing that we can relate on.  Is there someone you dislike?  What problems do you think that they face?  Well no, I don't dislike him.  In fact, I like him way too much and want the best for him.  Well I can only say what he has told me.  He has told me that he does have ADHD.  But Jason keeps telling me that Aj is normal and does not have ADHD.  So I was told to listen to other people and stay away from people who play games with me or try to lure me away from my parents house and try to do something bad to me.  There are some bad people out there in this world and that I should stay away from people who are trying to lure me away and try to sweet talk me to go with him.  If I would have went with him, something bad could have happened.  And this is my severe anxiety called selective mutism talking right now so don't kill the messenger.  

Is there any way you can relate?  Yes, I do relate... I think there is something with selective mutism and ADHD people that make things interesting.  People who have selective mutism who are quiet and ADHD who are loud can be quite the couple.  That would be a one-sided conversation.  There is SM who can't speak and ADHD who never shuts the F*** up.  But there is something about this wheel here with my auditory processing difficulties.  I'll show you.  It got me to thinking. That is a very dangerous thing for me to be doing.  I don't think you have to talk a lot to have adhd.  I believe that there are some individuals who have selective mutism also have adhd?  Correct?  

Wednesday January 7, 2026 | anxiety attack

Is it normal to have heart palpitations when I am in meditation?  When I was in meditation today, I noticed heart palpitations.  I just breathed through the attack and it went away.  

Tuesday January 6, 2026 | Journal Prompt | 100 Mindful Prompts for self-care & stress relief | The Idea Space

I am not really sure what ideas that I find beautiful.  I haven't gotten a chance to articulate something like this.  I may not have any money, but I find all ideas beautiful.  

Sunday January 4, 2026 | anxiety attack

Everyone lives two lives.  The second starts when you realize you only live one.  What does second life have in store?  

This makes no sense to me whatsoever.  Well I can only guess what my second life has in store.  It is then that I'll have an anxiety attack.  No one has any control over when or what time their anxiety attacks start.  They just happen.  People have been known to place the blame on other people!  Me?  I don't.  I just take time out and listen to that one meditation by The Mindful Movement.  Feel safe and calm.  Probably what I thought was going to happen actually did happen.  Did anyone else have an anxiety attack that someone passed away?  Can someone help me out here?  I guess I can say that it's my sister's friend and my Facebook friend on facebook.   Well I asked Google on my google hub to play "Feel safe and calm by The Mindful Movement".  

This was very weird and very scary.  I felt like I could not breathe until I played that one specific meditation.  That meditation worked like charm and I was calm in minutes.  

If you have anxiety attacks, just go to youtube and type in "The Mindful Movement - Feel safe and calm".   All of Sara Raymond's guided meditations are great!   

Friday January 2, 2025 | Journal Prompt | 100 Mindful Prompts | For Self-Care & Stress Relief | What could be accomplished if self-doubt was replaced with self-self-belief?

What could be accomplished if self-doubt was replaced with self-belief?  

Tuesday December 30, 2025 | 100 Mindful Prompts for self-care & stress relief | Meditating on my thoughts

I am allowing thoughts to go through my mind and get to thinking at this moment..... I am not able to say that.  Oh screw it just say it.  Right now I have a headache and I can't think right now.  My mind is not wanting to let me think.  I was thinking about how people tell me that I eat too much.  It's true that I eat too much but I eat too much of the wrong foods but not enough of the right foods.  Well I can have anything that I want but I need to eat less of everything that I put in my mouth.  

Sunday December 28, 2025 | Journal Prompt | 100 Mindful Prompts | For self-care & stress relief | Why me? Why now?

Saturday December 27, 2025 | Journal Prompt | 100 Mindful Prompts | Journal Prompt Cards for self care and stress relief | How can you live your life to find peace in death?

I got this from a journal prompt card.  "The leading cause of death is birth".  This I believe makes no sense to me whatsoever.  How can I live my life and find peace is to do what I am supposed to do and not fudge up.  Do what I think is right.  Correction. Do what other people think is the right thing to do is what I am trying to say.   Here is a quote I found on a card 100 mindful prompts.  I think it makes no sense to me.  "If you die before you die, you won't die when you die".  Makes no sense.  Why am I always afraid to reinvent myself for the first time over the age of 50?  I know that I can't leave the city of Beaumont and the state of Texas, I get that. As so the courts have mentioned in their documents. I guess this is why we go to the courthouse every year.  Oh I hate not being normal.  I wish I hadn't gotten selective mutism in the first place!!!  Right now, I would have a car and house and would be married and maybe a couple of kids.  That just sounds ridiculous coming out of me so I shouldn't have said that!!!     So I have to reinvent myself for the first time right here in this house upstairs but it's such a hassle to do this.  I don't think that I can change a routine because of mom and dad can't stand change.  They don't want to change their routine around and they don't want to go out driving in the dark because they can't see.  And I am also scared of the dark.  I should have done this in my 20's but I was way too scared to.  I didn't want to jeopardize anything.  

No, not done yet.  I do meditate but I still get angry and I am still negative. I get angry in a way that makes me do these ugly facial expressions.  My dad has seen me do them.  I really don't know that I do these facial expressions until my dad says something. I ask others if they do these expressions and they say yes, sometimes. I look at their face when they are doing something and nope they don't do anything of the sort as what my dad demonstrated.   I just have to wait and see if someone notices a change that I have changed.  No one will notice so screw it!  

Friday December 26, 2025 | Mindfully listen. How often you craft a response before the other person completes their thought?

Friday December 26, 2025 | Mindfully listen. How often you craft a response before the other person completes their thought?

Today I will uncomplicate my life by reducing the stress and lowering the anxiety.  Meditating three times per day could be beneficial to me.  The truth was, is and always will be free.  

Sunday, January 4, 2026 | Happy Birthday to me | Happy Birthday | 52

 

Sunday December 21, 2025 | What worries you the most currently?

Not being able to do things on my own.  I can't drive and their is no bus line out where I live at.  It is 

important for me to learn to live alone in an apartment.  I have learned my lesson not to let anyone 

spend the night in my apartment ever again.  I have learned my lesson.  Why do I have to listen to my

parents when they tell me stuff like this.  When the city of Beaumont clearly says that I am an adult!  But the city of Beaumont doesn't have to live with me, am I right?  

I feel like I am leaving things out.  Am I?  

Friday December 19, 2025 | If I had a magic wand, what problem would I solve?

If I had a magic wand, I would make selective mutism disappear from every one of us who has it and the problems it has caused us!  But I would still be like I am now.  Afraid to move and afraid to do anything for myself.  There is that thing called getting into trouble that is part of selective mutism.  

Thursday December 18, 2025 | Gratitude | Things to be grateful for

I would like to say support but I don't think I have any of that.  I would have loved to have support whenever I was first diagnosed with selective mutism when I was 4.  Everyone thought it was my fault.  People kept thinking that it was refusal to speak.  It was not refusal to speak.  It is clearly an anxiety disorder where a person who is normally able to speak does not speak in certain situations or to certain people.  If mom would have listened what I heard on Wikipedia back in 2012 then she would have known that too.  But I am grateful for the basic things like a roof over my head, clothes on my back, money to buy stuff and finding money in a book when I thought that I lost that $10 bill.  (i actually did find a 10 dollar bill in a book)  I was going to give it to Goodwill and something told me to flip through the book and I found a $10 dollar bill.  I am so grateful that my guardian angel told me to flip through the book.  

I often wondered if I had said the wrong thing back in grade school, middle school and even high school when I was able to speak.  

The picture above is how I felt all those years ago.  It is just how it sounds.  

Not being able to speak is not the same as not having anything to say.  But what is this experience that I have with not being able to formulate thoughts and trying not to make it come out weird and people not understanding you.  That is how I felt when I was younger and I spoke and the words just didn't seem to come out right.  

The picture below is that I would not wish selective mutism on anyone except Jason.  nah just kidding.  I would not wish selective mutism on anyone and even Jason and his mother, Doni.  

Wednesday December 17, 2025 | Right now, I feel challenged by ______. However, I feel supported by ______.

Is it normal to feel challenged by people saying that it's your weight that is making your knee hurt?  It is mostly my left knee because that is the same knee that I sprained back in 2007.  Mom may not remember it because it didn't happen to her.  I was the one who sprained my knee exercising back in 2007.  How would I ever be or feel supported?  That was back when I really didn't have hardly any room to maneuver around and exercise in that little bitty room that I have now.  I think it is time for another change.  But how would I convince someone to let me move into an apartment and even right next door to mom and dad.  My question is what would happen when mom and dad were to move into a nursing home?  I bet they would probably make me go live with my sister which I don't want to.  This would make this even more an importance that I should really do things by myself.  But how?  I need to do this myself even if it means that I will be alone for the rest of my life.  

By helping others, you will learn how to help yourself.  That is a very good quote.  The problem with that is..... I don't know if someone is scamming me or if they are really being nice.  With this AI crap around, I don't know who is being real or fake.  This AI stuff, might be talking to me and getting me to do stuff that I don't feel comfortable doing.  This SM is always on "HIGH ALERT" and I can't be myself.  But on the other hand, this SM is like I feel like I will get into trouble so I am always on "HIGH ALERT".  We people who have SM are always on "HIGH ALERT" and looking over our shoulder to see what people are going to do next.