Monday May 4, 2026 | I will not let people fill in the blanks and assume it means anger, judgment, disinterest or unpredictability.

 

🌱 2. Normalize your quietness so people don’t fill in the blanks

Most people misread silence because they assume it means:

• anger

• judgment

• confusion

• disinterest

• unpredictability

You can gently correct that by naming what your silence actually means:

“Quiet for me means I’m processing, not upset.”

“If I look away, I’m grounding myself so I can stay present.”

“I listen better when I’m not making eye contact.”

This gives people a map so they don’t invent their own story.

🌼 3. Give people a predictable pattern

People feel safer when they know what to expect.

You can offer a simple rhythm:

“I usually need a few seconds before I respond.”

“If I don’t answer right away, I’ll respond once I’ve processed.”

“I communicate better in writing, so feel free to text me if something feels unclear.”

Predictability reduces fear — not volume.

🌙 4. Use “I” statements that protect your dignity

These keep the focus on your style, not on labels:

• “I process internally.”

• “I think before I speak.”

• “I listen quietly.”

• “I communicate best when things are calm.”

• “I don’t always respond right away, but I am paying attention.”

These are adult, confident, and non‑pathologizing.

🔍 5. Clarify what your silence is not

This is powerful because it removes the fear people project onto you.

You can say:

“If I’m quiet, it’s not anger or judgment — it’s just how I communicate.”

“Silence doesn’t mean something is wrong.”

“I’m not ignoring you; I’m processing.”

This helps people stop assuming the worst.

🌟 6. Offer a tiny cue they can rely on

You don’t need to mask or perform — just give them one anchor.

Examples:

• a small nod

• a soft “mm‑hmm”

• a hand gesture

• a written note

• a thumbs‑up

• a short phrase like “I’m thinking”

These tiny cues reassure people without forcing you to talk.

🌾 7. Let your strengths speak for you

Your communication style is:

• steady

• observant

• emotionally intelligent

• grounded

• thoughtful

• nonjudgmental

When people understand that your quietness is part of that, not a threat, they relax.

🌤️ If you want, I can create:

• a one‑sentence script for strangers

• a gentle explanation for family

• a freeze‑friendly card you can show people

• a longer explanation for supported‑living staff

• a boundary script for people who misinterpret your silence

Just tell me which one you want next.

Monday May 4, 2026 | My communication style

Phrases when my speech shuts down. 

“Sometimes my speech shuts down in certain situations. I’m still listening and aware — I just need a different way to communicate.”


“I communicate best when I have time to process. If I look away or get quiet, I’m still listening.”

Or:

“Sometimes I respond slowly or non‑verbally. It’s just how my brain works — not a sign that anything’s wrong.”

Or:

“If I don’t answer right away, I’m thinking. Silence is part of how I communicate.”

Friday May 1, 2026 | Write about a memory that makes you feel warm.

The time when I spent the night with my grandmother.  She called it spena-night with granmaw.  I spent the most time with my granmaw.  So she tried to teach me to make my bed up as soon as I get up.  Well apparently I was listening because I still do it to this day!  When I was three years old I spent the night with my granmaw and we played this game called Bert and Ernie.  We played board games too but this was more roleplay in acting thing that I could tell my family without explaining.  Now that I know that I struggle with trying to explain things.  I just avoid explaining things.  Another time that I spent the night with my granmaw was when I was three years old.  I was standing by my grandmother's couch and a thought came in my head about death.  I don't know where that came from.  It could have been from watching Golden Girls with my granmaw everytime I spent the night with her on a Saturday night.  My great-granmaw passed away when I was five I think.  How could I have been so frightened at three years old to even be thinking of death and dying?  I know we get one life to live and only one chance to live it.  Something made me afraid of living.  I was standing by my grandmother's couch and I thought I was going to die.  You know what I tried to do?  Without anyone telling me anything.  I told my three year old self to live in the moment.  Breathe. And I said what I did not know was an affirmation.  I kept telling my 3 year old self to just "live in the present moment or right now."  Because when I said those two, I was able to relax.  It still works when I tell myself to this day!  

My granmaw also tried to teach me to eat fruits and vegetables.  I remember one time and my granmaw were eating watermelon and she told me that if you eat watermelon after 4pm, you will wet the bed.  Of course she said that half-jokingly.  One time my granmaw tried to get me to try grapefruit.  I just didn't like it.  It tasted tart.  

That was the most vivid memory that I had of my granmaw.  She passed away in December 2012.  It was like two days before Christmas.  

Thursday April 30, 2026 | What is your Favorite way to spend a lazy day?

Tuesday April 28, 2026 | What person in your life knows you the best, and how did you meet?

Other people know me better than I know myself.  I don't know who knows me best.  With AJ, it was starting to get scary when I thought that AJ knew me better than I knew myself.  But I thought that it was not right for people like me to meet others online.  It is just not good.  People could take advantage of me. 

No one even knows what I want, and I keep changing what I want.  My latest thing is that I want to volunteer with SMA, but I do not even know it is even legitimate.  I would have to get up early and get ready to go.  Oh wait... SMA is way too far away for me to be going to Houston Texas every day.  Mom can't be running me up there just to volunteer for about 3 days or so.  That is wasting gas going to and from Houston.  But there will always be that chance of someone firing me from another volunteer job.  I would have to get rid of Jason so he won't ruin anything to get me fired or something.  Ugh! go figure.  This is just my mind going nuts on overthinking.   

Thursday April 23, 2026 | What would you like more and less of in your life?

I would like more support for selective mutism and positivity in my life.  I would like less of negative people in my life.  It's getting bad when I have to take a hydroxizine when I go shopping at Walmart.  Then again I take one when I go to H E B too as it is so crowded.  How would I recognize negative people?

Here is the thing.  Jason says that I use his computers to talk to people online and journaling instead of talking to him.  Is that a bad thing?  To Jason it is.  Jason's mother---Doni agreed with him to take back all his computers if I don't stop talking to other people.  

If there was anyway that I could hang out with those who have selective mutism and autism then I could see how to act in certain situations.  Just don't get kicked out of that group, alright?  

forget this whole independent thing

Forget this whole dam thing about living in supported living because I simply can not handle myself in any situation. I give up on that!!!!!  I keep getting angry when things drop on the floor and it ends up being my fault anyway.