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Pole dance as a workout routine and I always wanted to try pickleball.  I wish that I could play pickleball and do a pole dance workout routine with a coach.  That will all cost me a fortune!  Say what if I could play pickleball and do pole dance.  No, they don't judge you and they will not ever be a predator or make me do anything that I am not comfortable with doing.  Guess what I have now?  I have selective mutism cards that I bought from my SM friend, I have freeze-friendly things that I can do you know (deep breathing, meditation, Journaling, making bracelets).    But I haven't been able to make bracelets or earrings as I am running low on cash. Well at least the SSD check.  Is there anything else I need or want to say?  I think of anything.  

This is what really made me angry all these years!  People have said that I was being rude, oppositional, stubborn and defiant all those years ago.  I don't know this for sure but I think that was why I was angry and people could look at me tell that I was angry just by looking at my face.  People wouldn't even shut up long enough for me to say my experiences with selective mutism.  I don't know what people thought but I think that people thought that I didn't even know what selective mutism was.  I really started looking up the words back in 2012 on wikipedia.org.  People thought that I got all my information from Jason.  So they just ignored me.  I only read information on organization websites and then go back to listening to other people because people are smarter than I am.  And has my mom looked up the actual word for oppositional?  I'm about to go do that myself.  Below is the picture of the definition of the word. ...

I’m not very efficient, but I want to be.  Efficiency isn’t about rushing — it’s about keeping things structured so I don’t get overloaded. It helps me stay present and communicate clearly.  

I’ve been through this before and always figured it was meant as an act of love and security, so I never brought it up. Once it happened with a newspaper and twice with their hand. But honestly, isn’t it usually people with ADHD or autism who might hit others, not so-called “normal” people?

This has got to be said.  If you think about it, God is our father and everyone in America and maybe even the world is our brothers and sisters.  Anytime God wants his children, he'll take them home whenever he feels they are ready.  Well that is what I heard in church somewhat when I was three to about 5 years old.  That scared the heck out of me when the preacher said that.  At times the Preacher at Northend Babtist Church would holler. Think about it.  How would it make a three year old feel?  She would feel scared wouldn't she?