I have a question about this. Every so often something or someone says something and it triggers me and I had to remember the accident. I remember the accident and all I remember is what either the cop or the paramedics said, "if I had been wearing a seat belt, I could have died." Then the whole thing replays itself in my mind over and over and over again. Is that called PTSD? I can't get that guy who hit us out of my head no matter how many times I meditate or do breathing exercises. My mom just says that I have to forget that butthole that hit us. It just keeps replaying in my head. That is probably why I am waking up screaming. Let's see when was the last time I had woke myself screaming? It was earlier this month. The last time was when I was talking about Sophie in my sleep and telling her not to get that box because I didn't want her tearing it up.
Plus Jason made the mistake of talking about my accident back in 1992.
The picture of it is below. Yeah, so far I only have Donnie Wahlberg. I'm looking for the other four NKOTB members; Jordan Knight, Jonathan Knight, Danny Wood and Joe Mcintyre.
Last night, I dreamed I got an apartment where I was at and I was just fine. I had my SM cards and my dog Nicki Rose who I was protecting for dear life. Here is the worst part of it. That bitch Marcy was back at the apartment working there. She kept saying stuff to me but I could not understand her because she kept sounding like a robot! ugh! Maybe the reason why that maybe is because people say us living with selective mutism, say that we sound like a robot with an emotionless expression. It actually says that on
www.selectivemutismcenter.org.
