Thursday July 18, 2024 | Fixed mindset and avoidance of challenges?

I'm wondering if "feeling threatened by others' success" is the same thing as being jealous of others' success. I ask because I am jealous of others' success. But I don't think I avoid challenges or give up easily.  I do have negative thinking but I'm not sure where the hell I get "being negative" from.  How do I start illimating people just to rid of my negative thinking?  The only time I gave up easily was December 20, 2012, when I moved back home after my grandmother passed away two days before Christmas.  

I could have stayed at the apartment and went into the hospital to have a med adjustment.  This just wasn't fair to me that I had to move back home.  

"Feeling threatened by others’ successes and being jealous of others’ successes are related, but they are not exactly the same. Here’s how they differ:

• Feeling threatened by others’ successes often uncovers a deep-seated fear of not being good enough¹. It’s a defensive mechanism, born out of fear rather than logic¹. People who constantly feel threatened by others’ achievements often struggle with a sense of self-worth and may feel like they’re not good enough¹. They look at others’ achievements and see them as a threat to their own value or position¹.

• Jealousy, on the other hand, is when you fear someone will take something away from you². You often feel resentment and anger when you are jealous². Jealousy is rooted in rivalry². It’s not just about wanting what someone else has, but also about feeling inadequate or threatened when others succeed¹.

In summary, while both feelings can stem from insecurity and can lead to negative emotions, feeling threatened is more about fearing loss of self-worth, while jealousy involves fear of losing something to someone else. Both feelings can be addressed through self-awareness, self-compassion, and personal growth³¹. 😊"

Thursday July 18, 2024 | Series of Journal prompts from Copilot on Windows 11

Sure, here’s a journal prompt for you:

“Reflect on a moment in your life when you felt really confident and full of self-esteem. What were you doing? Who were you with? How did it make you feel? Now, think about how you can recreate that feeling in your current situation. What steps can you take to boost your confidence and self-esteem today?”

Remember, the key to building confidence and self-esteem is to acknowledge your accomplishments, however small they may be, and to constantly challenge yourself with new tasks and goals. Happy journaling! 😊

The earliest memory I have was when I was in California and was just learning to take the city bus.  The first time I started taking the bus was when the bus fare was totally free just to get people to ride the bus.  I loved having that independence.  I had enough confidence to ride the bus to Walmart, or Lucky's(lucky's was the name of a grocery store in Vacaville California).  I'm sure it closed down by now.  I want that confidence and self-esteem again but the only problem is that 1) there are no busses that come out to where I live and 2) Beaumont Texas is too damn big now.  It makes me too damn anxious now to take the bus anywhere and to get anywhere on time.  

Thursday 18, 2024 | Journal prompt from Copilot on Windows 11

 Reflect on the following questions:

1. **What are the main reasons** you feel the need to move out of your parents' house? Are these reasons related to personal growth, independence, or a change in environment?

To show people I can make a change. Yes, they are absolutely related to personal growth, independence, or change in environment and to show people what hell I am made of.  I think I already have done that once and it never worked out.  (Oh yeah, once I do something and it doesn't work out I have to avoid that thing that made me unsuccessful the first time and never ever try again.  Oh yeah, that's a no, no I can't do that again.)  Where do we learn to avoid things or places?

2. **How do you envision your life** after moving out? What changes do you anticipate in your daily routine, responsibilities, and personal freedom?

Making jewelry, Meditate, Writing Journal prompts.  What I plan to do is keeping my butt in my apartment and leaving people alone and keep to myself. What did I learn back in the 80's?  Stranger danger!  

3. **What are the potential challenges** you might face living on your own? Consider aspects like financial responsibilities, housekeeping, and dealing with emergencies.

People who walk up to me to start a conversation. (this is what I want to do) This is also the reason why I believe that I have autism.  When is it selective mutism and or when is it autism?  

4. **How can you communicate your decision** to your parents in a respectful and understanding manner? How can you reassure them about your ability to handle living on your own?

In words that they can understand? Full sentences or at least one sentence.

Remember, it's not about making up excuses, but about expressing your genuine feelings and plans for your future.

Thursday July 18, 2024 | Journal prompts for self-discovery from Copilot on Windows 11

Absolutely! Here are a few more journal prompts for self-discovery:

“What are three things you would do if you weren’t afraid? How can you work towards these goals?"

1. Show people that I can save money.

2. Show people that I can do things without prompt.

3. Show people that I am not afraid.

“Describe your perfect day. What does it look like from the moment you wake up to when you go to bed?”

Wake up and get coffee.  Write a journal prompt.  Eat breakfast.  Do at least 30 minutes of physical activity.  Shower. Get an after workout snack.  Meditate.  Write another Journal prompt with a protein coffee, tea or a coke.

“Write about a challenge you’re facing right now. What are some possible solutions?”

Let me think about that one.  Give me a minute.

“What are five things you’re grateful for today?”

1. Grateful that god woke me up this morning.

2. Grateful that I was able to go to a NKOTB concert.

3. I am grateful that I got to go on two cruises.

4. I am hoping to go on at least one NKOTB cruise but it would have to with someone that I trust.

5. I am grateful that I got to move into an apartment by myself at least one time.

“What is something you’ve always wanted to try but haven’t yet? What’s holding you back?”

I would like to try volunteer acting at least once.  I heard from a source who either has selective mutism or someone who worked with someone who has had selective mutism.  They said that volunteer acting, modeling or singing has worked with that individual with SM.  

Remember, the purpose of these prompts is to help you explore your inner thoughts and feelings. Take your time and be honest with yourself. Happy journaling! 😊

Thursday July 18, 2024 | me and me being able to live on my own

I feel small because my room was designed for a child in the 1980s, and also because of my selective mutism. I have a guardian, and that may be why I have difficulty standing up for myself. I have to listen to my parents and the courts. I want to be able to get an apartment and a sofa like everyone else. Why can't I do that? I believe that I do have mild high-functioning autism. So when is it selective mutism and when is it autism?

Here is the orginal post I had started but like the one above a lot better.

Some might think that I'm blaming others but I'm not. This is all my fault. I brought this upon myself. If I am wrong, please tell me about what happened on December 20, 2012 and earlier?