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I'm wondering if "feeling threatened by others' success" is the same thing as being jealous of others' success. I ask because I am jealous of others' success. But I don't think I avoid challenges or give up easily.  I do have negative thinking but I'm not sure where the hell I get "being negative" from.  How do I start illimating people just to rid of my negative thinking?  The only time I gave up easily was December 20, 2012, when I moved back home after my grandmother passed away two days before Christmas.   I could have stayed at the apartment and went into the hospital to have a med adjustment.  This just wasn't fair to me that I had to move back home.   "Feeling threatened by others’ successes and being jealous of others’ successes are related, but they are not exactly the same. Here’s how they differ: Feeling threatened by others’ successes often uncovers a deep-seated fear of not being good enough 1 . It’s a defensive mechani...

Sure, here’s a journal prompt for you: “Reflect on a moment in your life when you felt really confident and full of self-esteem. What were you doing? Who were you with? How did it make you feel? Now, think about how you can recreate that feeling in your current situation. What steps can you take to boost your confidence and self-esteem today?” Remember, the key to building confidence and self-esteem is to acknowledge your accomplishments, however small they may be, and to constantly challenge yourself with new tasks and goals. Happy journaling! 😊 The earliest memory I have was when I was in California and was just learning to take the city bus.  The first time I started taking the bus was when the bus fare was totally free just to get people to ride the bus.  I loved having that independence.  I had enough confidence to ride the bus to Walmart, or Lucky's(lucky's was the name of a grocery store in Vacaville California).  I'm sure it closed down by now.  I want ...

 Reflect on the following questions: 1. **What are the main reasons** you feel the need to move out of your parents' house? Are these reasons related to personal growth, independence, or a change in environment? To show people I can make a change. Yes, they are absolutely related to personal growth, independence, or change in environment and to show people what hell I am made of.  I think I already have done that once and it never worked out.  (Oh yeah, once I do something and it doesn't work out I have to avoid that thing that made me unsuccessful the first time and never ever try again.  Oh yeah, that's a no, no I can't do that again.)  Where do we learn to avoid things or places? 2. **How do you envision your life** after moving out? What changes do you anticipate in your daily routine, responsibilities, and personal freedom? Making jewelry, Meditate, Writing Journal prompts.  What I plan to do is keeping my butt in my apartment and leaving people alone ...

Absolutely! Here are a few more journal prompts for self-discovery: “What are three things you would do if you weren’t afraid? How can you work towards these goals?" 1. Show people that I can save money. 2. Show people that I can do things without prompt. 3. Show people that I am not afraid. “Describe your perfect day. What does it look like from the moment you wake up to when you go to bed?” Wake up and get coffee.  Write a journal prompt.  Eat breakfast.  Do at least 30 minutes of physical activity.  Shower. Get an after workout snack.  Meditate.  Write another Journal prompt with a protein coffee, tea or a coke. “Write about a challenge you’re facing right now. What are some possible solutions?” Let me think about that one.  Give me a minute. “What are five things you’re grateful for today?” 1. Grateful that god woke me up this morning. 2. Grateful that I was able to go to a NKOTB concert. 3. I am grateful that I got to go on two cruises. 4. I am ho...

I feel small because my room was designed for a child in the 1980s, and also because of my selective mutism. I have a guardian, and that may be why I have difficulty standing up for myself. I have to listen to my parents and the courts. I want to be able to get an apartment and a sofa like everyone else. Why can't I do that? I believe that I do have mild high-functioning autism. So when is it selective mutism and when is it autism? Here is the orginal post I had started but like the one above a lot better. Some might think that I'm blaming others but I'm not. This is all my fault. I brought this upon myself. If I am wrong, please tell me about what happened on December 20, 2012 and earlier?