Thursday November 17, 2022 | Talking to people and making friends

When I was living in the apartment over there for three years, I felt like the apartment was actually my mom's apartment and I was paying her rent on it.  Marcy would call my mom and she would come over and straighten me out.  I would like to get an apartment and then really feel like it is my apartment.  My mom would tell me what to do and tell me to stay at home when all I wanted to try and do was go out of the apartment and talk to people.  I did accomplish something was I did do a somewhat of a gigsaw puzzle with one of the elderly. It was during the holidays in 2011.   It is just that I wanted to speak so badly to them but I couldn't.  I was so anxious.  

If it ever happens again, I would like to give you some tips to actually help me or help anyone with selective mutism. But everyone who has or is living with selective mutism is just a bit different than everyone else. No SM individual is the same.  I can prove that mom and Granmaw were saying these awful things about me. :'(  I wanted to cry.  This is why I left the area during some of the video. They made me feel so bad that day.  I can find the video on my YouTube channel of mom and Granmaw.   

Here is the video of My grandmother and my mom talking.  I can't remember what I did wrong that I was doing.  I wish they would have told me what I was doing.  

https://youtu.be/-gpHGpzqlqQ

I bet everyone has crawled through the window at some point in their life because they lost or forgot their house key inside the house, right?  Yes, I did.  One or two times during the time I was living in Vacaville California, I crawled through the back window because I noticed that the window was unlocked.  So just about everyone has crawled through the window if they forgot their key and wanted to get into their house.  Well, if they were smart enough to think of crawling through the window.  LOL!