Thursday February 12, 2026 | This is me proving that anxiety raises blood sugar

I felt (and even now) that all of these are when I shut down when well this is involuntary.  But family plus family friends and some strangers have also said these things and even quite often said "won't talk".  When really it is Can't talk and unable to move.  

• mouth won’t move

• throat feels tight

• words disappear

• mind goes blank

• body feels frozen or stuck

The fight-or-flight response somehow kicks in and I shutdown and can't talk.

Thursday February 12, 2026 | My three-year-old self in a dream

This is a weird but cool thing.  I just dream last night Wednesday Feb, 11, 2026 about my three-year-old self in church with my Grandmother, my mom and sister.  My sister is 5 years older than me so that would put her at 8 years old when I was 3?  We were living on broadmoor Street and going to sunday school and church as my grandmother called back then in the 79 and in the first part of the 80s.  So something might have happened when I was 3 years old.  I really didn't like yelling or loud talking.  I would put my hands over my ears?  Question?  Was that symptom of Autism right there? Putting hands over ears because things were too loud?  And there was a lot of loud talking back in the 80s when we as in my grandmother, my mom, my dad, sister and I went to church.  I am wondering if I didn't like yelling or loud things?