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Thursday August 14, 2025 | No one won't believe this but... Does this make any sense?

My earliest childhood memory was when I was 3, 4, and 5 years old when everything kinda started happening at once.  When I was 3, I was spending the night with my grandmother on a Friday or Saturday night.  I could swear that my three year old self was thinking like what would happen to my body if I were to pass away right then at that age.  I tried to "shake it off" and try not to think about that.  The more that I was thinking that, the more scared I got.  Which brought me to the time I was about 9 or 10 years old when mom and I were in my room and I kept telling her that I was scared.  Mom kept saying "scared of what".  I knew what I was scared of but I was afraid to tell her.  And just now today I put two and two together and realized that I was afraid of death and dying.  I swear I had the same reoccurring thought since I was three years old.   I felt like it put a lot of intense distress on me at 3.  I know now that death...