Can mom and dad not talk about a nursing home? It just makes me want to cry every time they talk about going in a nursing home. I know dad's low back is not good. When I run, all of my aches and pains go away. I don't know that math but let's just say I'm 27 years younger than they are. Joke or not still it's creating anxiety attacks for me. :'(
I am going to write more.
I just learned from my aunt (on my dad's side of the family) that I can never take care of myself! Mom has to care for me. Why did my aunt say that? :'( That truly hurt me so much! Except I could not say that because of the SM(Anxiety) was in the way. And I just noticed that my hands were shaking that I just typed this paragraph. I don't know why I have this thought in my head that I can't take care of myself as no one has said that to me. Maybe Jason said that to me but he's a little um... ??? can't think of the word. Full of shit? I don't know. But I think he was joking.
Just so you know, It's no one's fault that I'm the way I am. I tell myself it is not my fault. It just happened.
