Sunday February 7, 2021 | Remembering when I was three years old
I have been terrified of dying since I was about three years old and that was about in 1978. What did that mean? I am 47 and still afraid. What does that mean? I remember when I was three and I was spending the night with my grandmother. I believe it was a panic attack about death and dying. I don't know where I learned about death and dying when I was three. My little three-year-old heart was going 90 miles an hour. :'( I was scared I did not know what to do and I could not speak to tell someone. :'( I wanted to tell someone but I literally could not. I am getting scared all over again. :'( That's it! I believe that is what triggered my Selective Mutism! I swear to god! I don't know what else would trigger it but death and dying. Who would even talk about death and dying in front of me? I think it was my dad's dad that died when I was about three, or some kid talked about it when I was in preschool and I...