Why do I have the feeling that I can not do anything that other SM individuals are doing? They get to drive a car. I know a few people with Selective Mutism have got married. Do not make any jokes either. It is certain situations and certain people that we can talk to. I don't know why we can speak in certain situations and at other times we can't. Why I can speak to some people and other people I can't speak to. I guess that the people I can't speak to is when they don't know about the Selective Mutism and that it is Anxiety that is keeping me from speaking. I could not speak to the manager over there at Seville Apts. Well, I could have written her a note to tell her that my grandmother was dying and I was having an anxiety attack. (i did not know that at the time.) But was scared to give the note to her, or shove it under the door anyway.
Like when I first met Jason, I could not speak to him either. I was like frozen. When I first met Manuel. I could not speak to him either. I guess what I'm saying is that when I can speak to people who don't know about the Selective Mutism then I can't speak to people who know about the SM. I don't know what I'm saying. :'(
