Thursday May 11, 2023 | Start an online business

If I could start an online jewelry business, I would have to learn to make a really great rosary but who will want to buy the rosary anyway.  Who would feel sorry for me and buy my creations?  No one would want to buy anything from me since I am almost 50.  It would be fine if I was like 5 or so and I had autism or ADHD.   I am almost 50.  I might have either since people can have selective mutism and ADHD.  Or selective mutism and autism.  But has anyone had selective mutism, ADHD, and autism all at the same time?  Maybe they overcame selective mutism and all they have was autism and ADHD?  

No I don't think that I can start an online business because if some unexplained money comes rolling in, I will have some explaining to do to mom because she does my checkbook things. She would not know where the money was coming from.  Where is the money coming from?  She will ask me over and over again. Then she will ask me to delete it all from where ever it is and give that money back. Or otherwise, people will want the earrings that they paid for.  One time I put something up on ebay.com and I had to refund them back their money because I got scared.   Then I deleted my eBay account too.  Just two years ago, I created another ebay account. I saw a silicone reborn that was up for sale I won the auction unaware that I was scammed on ebay.  I wrote to ebay telling them I was scammed and they refunded me.  Now I just look for the 100% positive feedback and then click bid but those have already bidded until it was up to over 100 dollars. 

Thursday May 11, 2023 | How would you rate your overall mental health?

My mental health would overall be at an 8 since I am naive and gullible. Okay, when someone from the internet pops up out of nowhere.  I am not sure if they are being serious or just playing around.  It's fine if they are just playing around.  I can take playing around but anything more than that, I don't think that I can take it.  Maybe it's better if I just play it solo right now. I had to say goodbye to one then another and then another. Just last year, I had to say goodbye to AJ.  Because as always my mom thought that he was a scam.  Jason thought that AJ was a scam.  FOR THE LAST TIME AJ IS NOT A SCAM!  My mom just didn't want to have to take care of another human being for me.  Maybe it's for the best that I am how I am because that is all how I will be from now on.  I will always have to depend on people for the rest of my life.  No, I need to get these thoughts changed but how?  I guess I will have to do this.  I think this is all wrong and I left stuff out as always.  It's not that leave stuff out intentionally.  It's that I forget to say things when I am typing/talking to that person.