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In the middle of the night around 3am: Ahhhhhh oh this not good! I am afraid to say this let alone write this. But I guess I will get this out. I think different little things that scare me ----- like just now something woke me up just now. I thought that a train was going to run me over trying to cross it or driving over the railroad tracks. Or then I thought that a train was going to run someone else over trying to cross or drive over the railroad tracks. :'( makes me sad. :'( it sometimes wakes me up from sleep. Different things or different thoughts or dreams wake me from sleep and I cant sleep. Sometimes I am able to go back to sleep. Or I am afraid of losing other people. I am afraid of going to sleep and never waking again. I am afraid of my dog running off or getting run over. But that is like worrying today about tomorrow. Don't worry today about tomorrow. I'm (i fell asleep) Then I got up to go pee. (then ...