The time when I spent the night with my grandmother. She called it spena-night with granmaw. I spent the most time with my granmaw. So she tried to teach me to make my bed up as soon as I get up. Well apparently I was listening because I still do it to this day! When I was three years old I spent the night with my granmaw and we played this game called Bert and Ernie. We played board games too but this was more roleplay in acting thing that I could tell my family without explaining. Now that I know that I struggle with trying to explain things. I just avoid explaining things. Another time that I spent the night with my granmaw was when I was three years old. I was standing by my grandmother's couch and a thought came in my head about death. I don't know where that came from. It could have been from watching Golden Girls with my granmaw everytime I spent the night with her on a Saturday night. My great-granmaw passed away when I was five I think. How could I have been so frightened at three years old to even be thinking of death and dying? I know we get one life to live and only one chance to live it. Something made me afraid of living. I was standing by my grandmother's couch and I thought I was going to die. You know what I tried to do? Without anyone telling me anything. I told my three year old self to live in the moment. Breathe. And I said what I did not know was an affirmation. I kept telling my 3 year old self to just "live in the present moment or right now." Because when I said those two, I was able to relax. It still works when I tell myself to this day!
My granmaw also tried to teach me to eat fruits and vegetables. I remember one time and my granmaw were eating watermelon and she told me that if you eat watermelon after 4pm, you will wet the bed. Of course she said that half-jokingly. One time my granmaw tried to get me to try grapefruit. I just didn't like it. It tasted tart.
That was the most vivid memory that I had of my granmaw. She passed away in December 2012. It was like two days before Christmas.
