Monday August 11, 2025 | Me remembering myself at 3 and 4 years old

I remember that when I was about 3 or 4, I went to this place called little folks at the time on 11th Street.  I never would play with other kids my age. Kids my age made me anxious.  I would always hang out with the adults watching the other kids there.  Over the years it was renamed to something else that cares for kids and then it was renamed to something else.  We would go down that street all the time before me, my mom and dad moved to California.  I loved my peace and quiet but loved to hang out with the adults.(i think) 

I was bullied back in preschool and kindergarten. (i think) 

The last time I was not anxious about anything was when I was about 2 years old. Yes, 2 years old.  Because my mom told me that I spoke to my uncle Max when I was 2.  I asked like a kid of two would ask "are you comfortable?"  That is what my mom told me.  So I didn't have any signs of selective mutism at 2?  Well not until I hit Kindergarten until that is until Paul Beaumont got ahold of me. lol!  Yes he was my Kindergarten crush.   

Monday August 11, 2025 | What is one thing you've always wanted to try but haven't yet?

I have always wanted to try acting but something is stopping me.  I guess I have to say my lack of speaking is stopping me from trying something new.  But what can I do?  I have always wanted to get an apartment again.  Uh if they are that worried about it then they can still take care of my money if that is the problem of what happened over there at Seville Apartments.  

The only one who I got anything from is Liz Jackson but how did she find out what I did on that day of December 20, 2012?  Blabber mouth Lisa!  It figures!  It figures Lisa would tell.  Liz told me that I did some inappropriate things over there.  Now what are inappropriate things?  If I don't know what they are then I am not able to not do that again? 

I do have the tools so god forbid if that crap ever happens again, I can fight back!   I just didn't have the guts to fight back in my 30s because I was so much younger than the people over there in the apartment.