Intrusive Thoughts
Saturday, August 1 2020 How am I going to say this? I am having intrusive thoughts about how to accidentally get caught in something and then dying. What does that mean? It is really bothering me now. Sunday, August 2, 2020, I had a panic attack in my sleep. All i know is that i could not breathe. I had trouble catching my breath. When i woke up it was 4am i had to pee so i drank cold water then. Then i got back in bed. I got back in bed and fell back asleep. Had a nightmare about my cousin on my dad's side of the family. Can't remember what that was about. Except that they were not safe. I wonder if my cousin is safe? Then I dreamed about my nephew. I dreamed there was a shooting in downtown Beaumont right where they were going and didn't know. I knew about it but didn't know how to tell them except writing it down. I wonder if my nephew is safe? I know I should not be dreaming stuff like this but it...