Wednesday January 27, 2021

Is there any reason why I am falling asleep watching during the day shows that I recorded at night?  I have no problem sleeping at night.  I turn on google to play meditations what Jason and Karin call "bullshit".  I say don't knock it until you try.  Meditation works for me. When I tried it that first time back in 2014.  

Yesterday jan26, I had an anxiety attack and today I had another anxiety attack. I felt like I was going to cry. I had just eaten a banana after my run so that couldn't have caused it. I am not sure what could have caused it. 😢 I feel like I'm going to cry on good days too.  Could it be depression of not being able speak ordos things like whatever others with selective mutism are doing. People who are living with selective mutism are living in their own apartment and driving a car.  But what if there is an accident? That is what I'm afraid of. I think the depression is back. 😢