OMG! I just ran a 10 minute run with Pahla B Fitness on YouTube!!!! That definitely felt GREAT!!!! I feel GREAT!!!! Like a said in past blogs..... if I didn't think I was going to lose internet connection I would take that workout to the park and listen as I run with her. Plus I am really afraid of being caught again by the police again with another older lady that might call the cops on me without me even trying to explain my Selective Mutism. I know how to explain Selective Mutism now as I know more about it.
You know who inspires me to be brave and be me--- is AJ. I'm not telling anyone where I originally met AJ. Well originally I went on that site for a best friend. My relatives would have a panic attack. Just until recently have fallen hard for him. First I saw his eyes. Then went straight to his personality. He is sweet. I love (man this is really hard for me) I knew that loved him but I was too shy to admit it when we met about 10 years ago. Oh if I could date AJ, I totally would! Oh did I mention that before in a recent blog? Did he say does yoga and meditation? AJ said he got me into meditation. Well one day I was just messing around and looking at google play apps and I found a lot of meditations on google play. I found one called anger management and it had a big smiley face on it---I know it can't be missed. I did that one meditation right then and there and I loved it. From then on I started finding other meditations on google play. I wonder if it would be okay if I met him if someone I trusted and could speak to freely to come with me? Risking their safety would be asking a lot. Nothing will happen I swear to god! I can only speak to him if we were alone. Oh come on nothing would happen. I'm ready to take that risk.
What does Jason say about all this? Who the F cares? I'm sorry, for the cursing but I'm just sick of the negativity! I was just ready to speak up for myself. Yeah, I know, such language coming from a um.... sweet lady such as myself.
