I had a 15 or 20-minute panic attack of realizing that I don't have any money and no way of because no one understands me and my Selective Mutism. and they don't understand my anxiety/panic attacks!!! No way of working or doing anything. Because like I said, my family thinks that people are going to take advantage of me just because of my Selective Mutism! I think this is why they are keeping me on a tight leash!!!!! People can't control what other people do so my family just keeps me on a tight leash instead!!!
Changing the subject---today is the anniversary of Hurricane Harvey!!!! That was terrible. OMG! I still can't forget it. My parents got about 4 foot of water in their house--but my half of the house was dry. They lost everything but the clothes on their back.
8:30pm-- I self-harmed again. :'( I am not sure what triggered it. Why do we self-harm? I just want to keep that between me and him and I promised him I wouldn't self-harm again. I need a little help not to do that anymore. I really don't want to lose AJ. I like him a lot!!! But even more, I love a man who cries. It's.... It shows that they are sensitive? Please help me out here. And also I made Jason cry. Is that a good thing or bad thing that I made Jason cry? I guess it's a good thing since all those times Jason's made me cry.
