Anxious part 2 :'(
Thursday, June 18, 2020 --- I don't know where to start. I guess to start with last night's dream. I dreamed about my mom. But she was sitting in the corner with a blanket between her legs. But in the same dream, I had found size 8 jeans in my closet. In my dream, I decided to save those pairs of jeans in my closet until I lose weight I had gained in 2014 taking anxiety medication or mood stabilizers (did i spell that right) when doctors in the hospital I was at for a week to find the right one. Second, I am also feeling anxious that I can't speak. How am I going to prove to my relatives I can care for myself. I am also feeling anxious just sitting here talking about this. I want a job but now I'm afraid of this coronavirus and my inability to speak in front of people. I have trouble starting conversations. Which is another sign of autism? I just want to check and if I don't have it will leave it alone. And if I do have autism ...