Monday February 17, 2025 | Is this an anxiety attack?

Is this an anxiety attack that when you go to sleep at night and in the middle a deep sleep you start gasping for air?  I do wake myself up.  If it is then I have been having those anxiety attacks for awhile now. I would scream to wake myself up back in the 80s and 90s.  If it is, then I have been having anxiety and panic attack for a long time.  

Monday February 17, 2025 | What was I like when I was young, when I was “myself?” What qualities do I miss about her?

Well.... people thought I was a sweet girl.  The kids at the old school Wilbanks Elementary school,  (now BISD office).  thought that I was pretty weird.  They said that I weird too--especially this kid named Paul Beaumont.   I would like to look at it like they were jealous but really, they didn't want to be me.  They didn't want to be known as the quiet girl, who couldn't physically talk, who couldn't do anything and who couldn't get the words out.  So they said that I was rude. Once those kids said that I didn't have any teeth but that was not true.  When I got a little older and was in the 9th grade those kids at Westbrook 9th kids at that school said that would go all the way on a first date and they said at Central 9th that I bit someone's sister.  Those were also not true either.  I couldn't date anyone because I physically couldn't talk.