Saturday May 10, 2025 | What is this called?

When people are talking and something about guns and shooting comes up and I think a thought about someone saying that it will literally come back down hitting someone in the head.  Is that one called an intrusive thought?  This is really embarrassing to ask but what is that called?  It's probably something called a normal thought and everyone thinks things like this all the time.  It is normal.  

A lot of the times these kinds of thoughts scare the shit out of me. There was one thought I had that I would hit someone on the head with a frying pan and it was on a good day.  It scared the shit out of me.  And on those days a conversation triggers something.   Oh there was this time when we cross a railroad track and there was a train coming. It was way off down the tracks but still.  I wanted to say "goodbye I'm leaving out the car. I sincerely suggest that you come with me out the car to everyone in the car or you can just kiss your ass goodbye."  No, I'm just kidding.  But still I have a anxiety attack everytime we cross the railroad tracks.  

Perhaps it is normal and everyone else thinks things like this all the time?  Or maybe it is just really severe anxiety and it's normal so I just learned to ignore it.  But how can I ignore those thoughts in any given situation and even in meditation.  Those thoughts get in my safe space causing me to jump everytime it scares the shit out of me.  Do I have to start cursing to make anyone hear me?