Sunday March 20, 2022 | I feel like a child

I have no clue why I think this but I feel like a 3-year-old child about to do something I am not supposed to do.  I don't think I should write this down in my blog for safety and health reason.  I just don't want anyone to kill him or me.  I love him to death and wouldn't know what I would do if I lost him.  :'(   We can live here in Texas but I don't think we can move out of the state without my parent's permission.  Believe me, I do want to go.  I just want him so bad.  I love him.  I'm just in this situation where I have a guardian and my sister takes over when our parents leave the universe.  I want AJ.  Heck, I want to marry him!  lol!   My question is how does AJ feel about me?  I want to know.  I am afraid of being alone for the rest of my life.   I will never hurt AJ. I will never abandon AJ. I will love him!