Monday October 27, 2025 | Identify unmet needs from your childhood that still affect you today.

I don't know if my needs from childhood were constantly ignored.  I probably didn't know what needs were.  All I knew was that I had special needs.  My family should have treated me like I was normal.  I have other things wrong, too.  I have auditory processing difficulties, which I think I was diagnosed with at age 12 or 13.  I know that I was in junior high.  I got everything that I could possibly get, but there comes that time when you can't get everything that you want or need.  

Actually, I didn't know what selective mutism was when I was 4.  All I knew was that I just wanted to be able to speak to people.  I won't listen to Jason because he doesn't know anything about SM.  He doesn't even read anything about SM.  He just makes up stuff.  You know what?  He probably got that making-up stuff from his mother.  

Monday October 27, 2025 | what is on my mind | apartment thought

How come my parents won't let me get an apartment?  I need to see if I can make it.  My parents think that will happen again that did back on December 20, 2012.  I think that because I was in my 30s back in 2012, they were all bullying me over there at Seville apartments.  It is temporarily closed at the moment.  One day, I saw it on Google Maps, and it showed that it was closed down.  I don't know if I did it by reporting or if it just closed down.  Well, back in 2012, they were acting like elementary school kids over there.  It was horrible!  Those elderly people were just complaining about stuff, just one thing after another.    

Then Jason said that I was running down the hall screaming. Well, it was raining and I was trying to make a run for it inside, and I had my dog, my other fullbred chihuahua with me at the time, and oh, the worst part of that is that those old nasty men over there were hitting on me.  I wanted to say I already have a boyfriend, but it just wouldn't come out of my mouth.  

I would love another full-bred chihuahua one day, but I do love my Nicki Rose--a chihuahua fox terrier.  

I think that is about it.  Oh, and Jason thought he saw me go out in just a bra.  Oh my god, Jason is an idiot!  I did not!   He spouts out stupid stuff that doesn't make any sense out of his mouth.  Jason does have ADHD, and he says it is part of his ADHD.  Either Jason or I is being negative here.  I know people with ADHD tend to be negative all the time.  I thought I read on a selectivemutism.org site that people with SM tend to be negative because they feel they would get into trouble with their parents if they rented an apartment without their parents' permission -- because of what happened years ago when someone from Seville apartments took advantage of me or tried to take advantage of me.