The second part of my dream was when I dreamed about Manuel. My ex-boyfriend in California. I would have loved to see a "what if" just to see where it would go but somehow Manuel's mom did not like me at all. I think it was just because I have selective mutism. I know how to explain it now if he ever wants to talk to me again. Just to get this all out in the open..... I loved the shit out of him! I loved him because he was so positive and sweet. If he would have given me half a chance, I would have figured out how to explain selective mutism eventually. In the dream, all me and Manuel did was kiss and mess around and stuff like that. I loved Manuel more than I loved AJ. Sorry AJ. AJ is positive and sweet too but I got to touch Manuel!
I want to say this one more time. I wished I could have did everything I could to get him here because I love him so much because of his attitude and he is sweet and he is kind and gentle towards me. If it doesn't work out with him and his girlfriend, I would like to date him for a bit just to see what happens.
Well I need to say this because I have been doing these mouth, face and tongue movements since I was about 23. I know I sound psychotic now since I had these mouth, face and tongue movements. Well the tongue movements stopped and the mouth/sounds movements. Maybe these are normal then? Am I the only one having to check my own mouth/sound and face movements? Because I know what they look like huh.
