Tuesday September 24, 2024 | My dream I had last night

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The dream I had last night was awesome.  I dreamed that I overcame selective mutism.  My family was hearing me chatting away!  

The second part of my dream was when I dreamed about Manuel.  My ex-boyfriend in California.  I would have loved to see a "what if" just to see where it would go but somehow Manuel's mom did not like me at all.  I think it was just because I have selective mutism.  I know how to explain it now if he ever wants to talk to me again.  Just to get this all out in the open.....  I loved the shit out of him!  I loved him because he was so positive and sweet.  If he would have given me half a chance, I would have figured out how to explain selective mutism eventually.  In the dream, all me and Manuel did was kiss and mess around and stuff like that. I loved Manuel more than I loved AJ.  Sorry AJ.  AJ is positive and sweet too but I got to touch Manuel!  

I want to say this one more time.  I wished I could have did everything I could to get him here because I love him so much because of his attitude and he is sweet and he is kind and gentle towards me.  If it doesn't work out with him and his girlfriend, I would like to date him for a bit just to see what happens.  

Well I need to say this because I have been doing these mouth, face and tongue movements since I was about 23.  I know I sound psychotic now since I had these mouth, face and tongue movements. Well the tongue movements stopped and the mouth/sounds movements. Maybe these are normal then? Am I the only one having to check my own mouth/sound and face movements? Because I know what they look like huh.





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