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Yeah I made that mistake on December 20, 2012.  I kinda had to agree on it because I was in no position to make decisions regarding my mental and physical health.  I had failed to stand up for myself.  I knew that I needed to go into the hospital.  She did not believe me.  I tried to tell my mom that my medicine was going haywire on me, but she would not believe me.  My mom kept telling me that I wanted off all my medications.  I am sorry but that is the dumbest thing that she has ever said.  No, that could not be further from the truth.  I wanted to tell my doctor that my medications were not working anymore and to be put on new medications that would work.  I wasn't sure how to phrase it.  That was in December 2012.  

Does it count those people who are online?  Or are they not real people?  I am the only one who understand them.  Every why question needs to have a good answer.  Since I am unable to produce a good answer, then I am not going or doing anything because it will not be safe.  That is my mom's anxiety not mine.  They don't want to take me anywhere although the thought has crossed my mind back in 2014 and 2021.  They just want to be good friends.  I guess that is what ruins a relationship is jealousy.