Monday February 7, 2022 | I cant live without him

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I want to know if it is okay if I can live with AJ.  I want to say flat out that I will not live with my sister Karin or my aunt Lisa.   AJ could be moving to Cali up in the Northern part of Cali.  Or he could be moving to Arizona.  I would like to have more options than just one!  

I need him. I don't think I can focus on anything else other than him.   I want to speak my mind but I'm afraid of my parents. I have to listen to them. Do I have to listen to them?  I want to speak my mind and tell my feelings. I want to live with him but I'm afraid my mom is going to tell me that is not a good idea. Nothing will happen. Right AJ? Right? 

Tuesday, February 8, 2022 - I just want to say that just because they say "don't worry about that right now, we are not dead yet".  I still have this issue of I want to put this out there.  I want to be like everyone else with Selective Mutism.  They are keeping me inside this bubble.  Just because I can't work and just because I don't have money, doesn't mean that I can't do anything.  Yeah, like what are. I mean what does he plan to do?  What are his feelings toward me?  How is he going to support me?  Yes, I'm asking questions what I think my parents will ask.  It all goes back to I may have Selective Mutism but I'm certainly not stupid!!!  

AJ keeps me calm when my parents get upset about something. It could be anything that I don't need to worry about but I still worry about it.   I want to live life without (help me out here)   What I told him they would have a sh*t!  That I have a guardianship.  Well it's called a guardianship in California.  I don't know what it's called here in Texas.  All I know is that I HATE TEXAS!  TEXAS IS NOT FAIR!!!  California does not care if you have money stuffed away somewhere like a trust fund. ugh!  Texas found out about it and took my SSI away from me.  I have Selective Mutism. I am unable to work because people don't understand.  Well from what my mom has told me a long time ago.  Now?  I know that now more people are starting to understand a lot more.  And if she knew I was writing about this in a blog, she would have a shit!!! But it's my feelings that I want to get out!!!!  I want to settle this issue because I want to live my life like any other "Selectively Mute individual".  It is obvious that I will always have a guardianship and someone to take care of my money.   And I hope this gets across the united states.  I hope this goes viral or something and gets across the news!!!  I know that they will tell me to delete some of this because I could get robbed out of my money somewhere in the near future or something like that.  Yes, I know there are some dishonest people out there.  I am the most honest you will ever meet and people will take advantage of that, I know.    AJ has told me that he has no interest in my money.  He just told me that he loves me.  

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