Friday February 28, 2025 | What am I most grateful for as February comes to an end?

What I am most grateful for is having a journal to write my anxious thoughts in.  (If they even are anxious thoughts?)  And most of all grateful for having a pretty journaling pen to write with.  The thing I am uncertain about is what is an example of an anxious thought?  I googled it and it said and I know what neurotypical people will say.  "It's just an anxious thought, get over it".  :'(   This is what my mind kept thinking and I had a panic attack about it.  I have stupid panic attacks about stupid idiotic stuff! Not about about other people would think.  I would appreciate it if someone wouldn't judge this anxious thought.  

"If a person dies in a house with two pet dogs and they get hungry, the dogs would likely begin to search for food, potentially trying to access the person's food or looking for other sources of sustenance around the house, as they wouldn't understand that their owner is deceased and unable to provide for them; however, they would not intentionally eat the deceased person as this is not a natural behavior for dogs, although in extreme circumstances, they might nibble on exposed flesh due to curiosity or desperation."

This article where I got it is from Psychology Today.  If You Died Alone, Would Your Cat or Dog Eat You? | Psychology Today. I didn't know how to come up with my own words, so I googled it and the 

above is what I found in quotation marks.  That is how bad I am at explaining things and I'm embarrassed that I had a panic attack about that.  

During the panic attack I kept getting tense, nauseated and a headache. It felt like a tight

band that was wrapped around my head.  Then I thought I had eaten

something that didn't agree with me. I don't think that was it.  All I had last night,

(thursday) was a chicken wrap and a protein shake.  Now started to feel that way again

tonight but that is because I am blogging about this.  Still, I think could have got up last night

and taken a Hydroxyzine and went back to bed.  Oh!  Then I kept thinking that high blood 

sugar could be linked to being nauseated and having a headache. Oh god!  I'm having that panic

attack again.  

I doubt no one else would read this but Jason says that protein makes a person fat

particularly me just because he wants me to have diabetes just like him so I would cut

the sugar and fat all together.  

I think I will just say this... first off.  It's okay to not be okay.  And Yes, I will be okay.  Nothing

will happen. If anyone (particularly Jason) says that it's just an anxious thought, I will

punch him! And everyone who knows me knows that will punch him.  

still typing.............................