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We are mindful when we are aware of our thoughts.  What thoughts are presents now?   Right now I am thinking about my blood sugar as I am going to have a blood test in the morning. Oh this is triggering, why does everyone automatically think it is my weight that is making my blood sugar shoot up through the roof.  Well maybe not through the roof--that was exaggerating.  Okay last year it was a little higher than normal but not high enough to be classified as diabetes .  My doctor had me cut out sugar and fat.  Why does everyone say it is my weight?  Does anxiety spike blood sugar?   

Allowing yourself to let go of whatever it is that is stressing you.  Invite sensations of peace and equanimity to fill your idea space.   I, and I alone, am responsible for everything I think and feel.  I can do anything that I want, it just has to be within reason.  I choose how I feel today.   I just remembered an event at Becky and Robert Young's house.  Well I peed myself in the grocery store where we were at.  I was about 3 and 4 years old.  Either Becky or Robert made me sit in the corner.  I'm sure they had a very good reason for doing what they did.  Hold it!  I believe my selective mutism started at what.... 3 and 4 years old.  So when I was 2 years old I was fine.  I just had to come back here and tell about this one little part.  It wasn't until I got to preschool is when the selective mutism started.  That is when I was probably away from mom and dad for a couple of hours at preschool?...

First off I am ready to move on from selective mutism .  It's like drowning in anxiety and staying submerged in it and people not letting me recover from it.  But lately people have been backing off and letting me handle what would call it light speaking .   

This is what I found when I asked this question to copilot.  I think that is some good shit.  I might want to be careful as I don't trust myself and I don't trust what google, Alexa or copilot gives me answers to. Please note that they are an AI.  All three of them help me with my communication tremendously!  Name someone with either autism or selective mutism or any anxiety disorder that AI has also helped them with their communication.   I promise that I will not take it to heart.  You can answer this question if you want to.  I would love to hear all responses as all responses are welcome.   w hat do I do when a person takes advantage of me? When someone takes advantage of you, the most important thing is to shift from reacting emotionally to responding with clarity and boundaries . You don’t have to confront them dramatically or cut them off immediately — you just need to reclaim your power in a steady, grounded way. Here’s a clear,...

What can you do tomorrow to become a better version of yourself? I can say "I am" affirmations to make me a better version of myself.  I am hoping it could.  It is much easier to judge other people than yourself.  People can talk themselves out of something just because of other people.  

 1977 - three years old.  I remember that Becky and Robert Young baby sat me, Karin and my aunt Lisa.  So I guess when I was 3 years old my aunt Lisa was about 10 and my sister Karin was about 8 years old.  I also remember that Becky and Robert Young just had a mattress on the floor and Becky and Robert's kids Amy and James would never sleep in their beds up in their rooms.  They would always sleep on the bottom floor in Becky and Robert's room.  They all lived in Lumberton Texas.   Something happened at school and wouldn't ask to go to the toilet.  I was scared that they would hear my voice as all individuals with SM are afraid.  But I did learn a trick.  When I don't look at the person when I am speaking or when I am upstairs.  Oh I told myself that I would get myself a reward if I yelled from upstairs all the way downstairs.  So I got myself a top and capri denim leggings. 1978 - I was about 4 years old.  When us k...

Greatness is always in the moment of the decision.  I do workout and stream TV and stream my workouts .  No small decision I make today will break me.  I will tend to my thoughts and feelings.  I am grateful to be alive and well for the most part.   Today I had an anxiety attack .  It was about my bathtub leaking .  Question.  Has anyone ever had a thought about moving and a thought comes saying that someone to duck someone else when they are helping then pack to move or getting rid of some stuff and they quit just because it got hard or overwhelming to think about....?