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Leave it to me to find another meditation and journaling app .  It's also a mood tracker  called 5 minute journal.  It's called journal in the app store and it has a yellow logo on it. The app logo looks like this: I am a big believer in apps.  Journaling, meditation and mood tracker.  

I am sticking to my yoga and Qigong practice like glue.  What if I told you that Qigong practice helps with toning belly fat ?  Qigong helps relieve anxiety and stress .  Well I must say that I eat a small bowl of yogurt with fruit and nuts  or cottage cheese with fruit and nuts and or goji berries .  Those suckers are good!  Or I put goji berries or chia seeds on top of my protein shake.  I heard that you are supposed to soak your chia seeds what for? Have no idea.  (I heard about that from Tracy Campoli's YouTube videos . I also heard about goji berries from Nora Day .  She's a yogi on YouTube who just practices all kinds of yoga.)   I think the nuts are protein.  I do PahlaB shoulder-friendly workouts .  There are two videos, one with moderate dumbells and one without any weights.  Today, I workout to the one without weights but I added 3lb dumbells.  Because well I have a shoulder situation and just w...

Where should I start?  I guess I should start at moving.  I want to live by myself in a separate apartment but in the same apartment complex as my parents on the bottom floor of the apartment building.  I don't mind getting on the third or second floor but anything higher than that just scares the sh*! out of me. I am afraid of heights.   Just trust me on this.  Everything will be fine now since I have my SM cards, therapy dog, reborns and other assorted things to do like making jewelry, reading and journaling.  Oh I bet if I inform the manager of any apartment complex, and say my dog is a therapy dog which it is true I would completely skimp out on a pet deposit for my dog. But I would have to pay any damages that my dog did.   My other Chihuahua-Jordan was a therapy dog.  I want another Chihuahua!   Then I think of mom and dad and they can't really take care of the house anymore.  I can barely do it.  We are moving ...

First of all I want to know if you think that if a person has muscle pain does it mean that they are obese?  My doctor told me that and that is the most stupidest thing that I have ever heard in my life!  That makes no sense to me whatsoever!   So if a person is obese, they are supposed to lose weight and the muscle pain will be gone?  It's got to be either my evercises, my weight and something else is going on.  I don't know what it is.   My shoulder is starting to hurt again.  My doctor did say it was possible rotator cuff but something else was going on with that blood test that showed up.  Okay there was already an answer to that problem.... it was muscle soreness due to me being obese.  My doctor already said.  Oh, so I heard from someone that if my joints pop it is also because I am obese.  My knees and hips pop, I am morbidly obese.  I think that the popping sound is just a warning.  The next time it pops ...

The first time I suspected that I have autism, was when I was 16.  No one knew what it was so I brush it off as being "normal".   The first thing I noticed what difficulty making friends when they would stray away.  The friendboy's who are disabled, (i like to say it friendboy that way to keep me from being anxious) Jason and AJ both understand SM and they both have ADHD and I think they are autistic.  AJ and Jason act the same way. Aj is just a little nicer than Jason because I think AJ knows how to control his adhd symptoms.  Sometimes I think that I have ADHD because I really want to say things that AJ and Jason do say that get sometimes or maybe alot of times gets them in trouble.   There is something I could never figure out is why does anyone who has some kind of disability always find each other?  Selective mutism and autism somewhat have the same symptoms.  I do believe that ADHD and Selective mutism are the same.  SM is qui...

I have to settle an argument.  I want to know if an old saggy mattress causes muscle pain from head to toe?  It feels like a thin layer of muscle pain from head to toe.  Here is the picture that I have found.

My original reason for wanting to lose weight when I was 30 was wanting to be a healthy weight.  Now I just wanting to lose weight to keep people from teasing me because I am morbidly obese.  I believe that I was in some kind of hormonal changes in my 40's not only just eating too much.  I think that we all eat too much junk.  That original reason for wanting to lose weight became obsolete.  Now?  Now I want to lose weight to keep people from teasing me and telling me to lose weight when I am doing the best way I know how.   Plus I had severe anxiety due to selective mutism.  I don't care what anyone else thinks about selective mutism, I was struggling a good part of my life with it.  Some stupid idiot thinks that I am not going to overcome it.  Do you think that someone who is 51 will ever overcome selective mutism?  I know I'm not going to totally overcome it as I will still have the effects from SM.