Monday October 6, 2025 | Write everything that is worrying you right now and then tear up the page

Where should I start?  I guess I should start at moving.  I want to live by myself in a separate apartment but in the same apartment complex as my parents on the bottom floor of the apartment building.  I don't mind getting on the third or second floor but anything higher than that just scares the sh*! out of me. I am afraid of heights.   Just trust me on this.  Everything will be fine now since I have my SM cards, therapy dog, reborns and other assorted things to do like making jewelry, reading and journaling.  Oh I bet if I inform the manager of any apartment complex, and say my dog is a therapy dog which it is true I would completely skimp out on a pet deposit for my dog. But I would have to pay any damages that my dog did.   My other Chihuahua-Jordan was a therapy dog.  I want another Chihuahua!   Then I think of mom and dad and they can't really take care of the house anymore.  I can barely do it.  We are moving and that is final!   Why do we want to move?  Well, none of us can take care of the house that we are living in.  At least I learned how to take 2 to 4 green garbage cans out to the street.  Our and the neighbors across the street and whoever thinks about it brings them back in and across the street.  I think of dad who just turned 80 back in April and mom who is turning 80 next year in 2026.  I am scared to death of getting caught up in house.  I want to in an apartment knowing that I can do things for myself and I can't do that while I am in this house.  But the problem is that I don't have enough money to be moving into an apartment.  I know that their are apartments for people with disabilities are through HUD housing.  That is all I know.  I swear!  I want my dresser that is in storage.  I do know that I will need help moving that dresser.    I would try to get out of the apartment unless someone makes me anxious.  

I guess that is it unless I think of anything else before this day is done in which case I will be back here.