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A guy from the army texted me on Whatsapp and he started telling me all about himself.  Sure I like the attention but maybe it's time that I learn the difference in scammers and not scammers.  Maybe I need to buy a book to be able to learn the difference.   I hate that people have to lie and say that they are in the army just to get a romance going.  I want to look for the good in people but how can I when there are so many scammers out there that say the same thing over, and over and over and over and over again!  If one more pops up like that I will not believe a damn word he says to me!!! 

There is a Chihuahua puppy that I want.  She has all her shots and is a registered puppy. (i don't know what registered means) She is trained and potty trained.  Problem is my mom says there is too many dogs already. By the time this puppy is an adult dog, when I do get to move it probably could be in an apartment along with Nicki Rose.   There is already two cats--Lucky-Love and Happy (babygirl).  Lucky-Love has just a little big of anxiety and well Happy doesn't like to be picked up. Sometimes Happy(babygirl) will allow me to pick her up.  I grab her and say "gotcha!"  OMG!  Happy (babygirl) is so cute!  Yeah, Happy is the cat that I attracted through the law of attraction.   I will attract a cute little full-bred Chihuahua through the law of attraction.  Well it may not be before my 50th birthday but I will attract a full-bred Chihuahua after my 50th birthday!  

  Mental Trash When did the voice inside your head start talking? When I first noticed my 'thought-chatter', I was about 11 years old and just going into the 6th grade at Vincent Middle School.  From 3 to up until 10, my 'thought-chatter' was just straight silent.  My 'thought-chatter' didn't want to be silent anymore.  I wanted to talk and speak my thoughts.   "She will never get what she wants if she doesn't talk". by my dad in the kitchen on 468 Royal Oaks Drive in Vacville Calif.  I was 17 years old when he said that. I was sitting in the living room because I was told to.  So I could think about what I had done--and why it was wrong.  Oh that was so wrong.  I think---well I did crank call the school in 1991, and they thought that I wouldn't speak to anyone. Well they were wrong! I only speak in certain situations and to certain people.   My mom and My granmaw were talking in front of me and saying that my mom was going to ...

I did have an anxiety attack on Wednesday, July 5 and about 20 minutes after we hung up on Zoom, I recognized it as an anxiety attack because I had shaky hands.  That is when I figured I would lay back under my weighted blanket for about 20 minutes.  I ended up falling asleep until 3:30 pm.  I have a saggy mattress so I haven't been sleeping well at all.  Well, I just around to flipping the mattress over and sleeping on the more firmer side and omg! I slept well!!!  I thought the other side was going to be like a piece of plywood but no it was soft but more firm than the other side--the pillowtop side.  The flipping over the mattress is just to by some time until 2025 when I get a new mattress or an entirely new bed.  Why?  I hate that footboard on it now because it is a pain in the butt to make up.  Well not really but I did hit my hip on that footboard and it hurt like a mthr f--r!    I have a question.  Would a saggy mattres...

 Okay, there are two Journal prompts that I did. The ones that liked anyway.  Here are the pictures of them. 

A Nkotb fan popped into my life.  Not all New Kids fans are females just to let you know.  But he is making me see that I can do things but if he really wants to get involved, in reality, he will have to ask my dad a very important question if he really wants to do that thing. But then again he could be gay and Jason doesn't have anything to worry about.  Everyone in my family and especially Jason knows that I am a very incompetent woman and not to mention mentally a three-year-old.  I mean I know the basic stuff of taking care of myself, but when it comes to money and speaking to people. No one thinks that I can speak to people in some situations.  There is a whole new side of me that no one even dares to even want to know. Wanting or deserving someone who respects me and I can love.  Do I even deserve that even though I am incompetent and can't really barely balance a checkbook let alone call a doctor?  I know what my family will say, what do you wan...

Yeah, I think I am falling in love with a new kids fan.  I am pretty sure I am all girly because I like men.  I have been reading affirmations for attracting my soulmate and apparently, I attracted two men just from the law of attraction.  If I can attract a cat, then I can attract anything else including my soulmate.  So I started reading affirmations on Pinterest for attracting my soulmate and now I am shaking because I hear my mom and dad's voice in my head saying that is not right and not kosher.  Really dad!  Pickles belong in Kosher!  I am not pickle!   And about the one in England, I am not sure.  He may be a scammer but then again he may not be.  I don't know these days everyone is a scammer because I have to listen to everyone who is older than me because I am young, naive, and gullible!   But I want to prove to all these mother F-rs that there are good people in this world!!!!!  Everyone will listen to you w...