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When I was 13, I wanted to be an actress.  That was a totally a joke!  My mom told me that you have to be able to talk to do that.  So I gave it up.  We could have worked something out.  There are loads of things I could have played.  But nooooooooooooooo She had to be hard-headed and tell me "you gotta be able to talk to do that."   I am unemployed now kinda like I'm retired. I guess I retired when I was in my mid to late 30's.  

I have learned lately that peri/ and menopause doesn't even have any symptoms except for hot flashes/night sweats and a woman losing her periods and that's it.  There are really no symptoms of peri/ and menopause.  Or maybe I just don't understand perimenopause and menopause.  Just like no one completely understands selective mutism or maybe they don't want to understand it.   You think I should try and make a YouTube video answering one journal prompt per day?  Let me know and then give me some questions to answer.  

I have a memory that I would like to erase but it's a toss up between Robert Young and this death talk.  It would eventually be talked about as death is a part of life-- but I didn't want to be screwing around with that talk when I was 3 years old.  I was actually a positive little person back then from when I was 2 up until I was about I want to say 13?  What the heck happened?  And don't blame Jason because I did not know Jason V back in the late 70's.  

I remembered more when I was three. I think I heard that when I was in church from 3 to about 5. The preacher said something about death or so I thought. That scared me and I wasn't able to sleep after that. That why I do remember saying when I was 9 or 10.  I'm scared. Mom said of what?  I have been scared ever since and I wasn't able to say and I tried to ignore it.  Oh when I was three to about five, I tried to ignore what scared me and tell myself to breathe and thought to myself to be in the now. Like right now. For years I have been scared. But it happens. 

STOP!  Go no further than you can do!  You are a danger to yourself and other people around you.  I am unable to make decisions and make and sell bracelets and earrings.   I was told that it is just a hassle to make and sell bracelets and earrings.  I will get scammed and would not be able to back my way out of it if I was scammed by someone.  

Well it was the way that the cards were delt for that person.  I personally think that for example; if a person has selective mutism, autism or ADHD, that was the way that the cards were delt for that person.  They do have to manage their ADHD, or Autism or selective mutism and it's really easy to manage.  Some people are just too lazy to manage their ADHD or is it now ADD.  I am talking about Jason as I look over toward the laptop.  ugh!  

I don't know if this is right but overexercising raises cortisol?  When I am exercising, I swear that I forget to stop after 30 minutes because I am having so much fun!  I just feel so good afterwards. My body feels so good!