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I wanted to change my way of thinking and my beliefs.  The behaviors I think I was not talking and was always wanting to get defensive.  I feel most at peace with myself when I am reading affirmations, journaling, meditating, listening to music and reading a book.  I can remind myself to read affirmations for self-worth but that is all I can do.  I am unable to make things happen but save this SS money because I am no longer able to work.  It is too much of a hassle.   Here is an affirmation for self-worth that I learned in "You Are Not Broken" by Sara Raymond.   "I am enough as I am, and I embrace my journey with compassion".    Here is another one.  I trust the wisdom within me and believe in my ability to transform my life.  My firm beliefs are now is "It is too much of a hassle".   Where do you think that came from?  

My own transformation, I hope to overcome selective mutism a little bit.  But with a little help from a well trained hypnotherapist by my side, where can I go wrong.  Instead of an apartment I want to save up enough money for a hypnotherapist for me to overcome selective mutism.  This means that I can't ever get an apartment ever again.  But I guess this is worth it to not be able to have an apartment for the rest of my life.  I would rather spend my money on a hypnotherapy session instead of getting an apartment for the rest of my life.  I think other people will say that my safety strategy is not speaking to people.  I do have to agree with them as I have a fear of speaking to people. (shut up I'm talking now)  This is no longer working now because it's getting me in trouble.  It's allowing people to take advantage of me and making people think that is what is best for me.  People probably do think they know what is best for me. I also...

I still believe that I have Asperger's.  I have quite a few of the symptoms.  But just because you have the symptoms, doesn't mean that you automatically have Asperger's.  I know.  but same goes for Tourette Syndrome or any other diseases or disorders.  And it not even tourettes. My doctor said that I do have tourette-like symptoms called tourettism. 

What are you afraid of... and why? Fear of public speaking asserting yourself making decisions intimacy being alone being with people aging driving following your dream losing a loved one ending a relationship I believe that something like this happened with me and I was like 3 or 4 years old. (i think)  I know that my parents will never remember that me doing this at 3 or 4 but I poked out that middle finger at someone and got my very first punishment.(i think)  This may be my imagination but I wonder if I became scared of everything when I was about 3 year old.  I am not blaming my parents but I'm thinking I was around ages 3 to about 5 years old when picking up this fear of strangers and that people could really hurt me really badly or could take advantage of someone like me.  Apparently, I was listening to every word everyone said.   Somehow I feel the need to speak only when I have to say something.  Just hear me out.  There is this individua...

When I see lor hear these words, I think of ice cream and portion sizes are my weaknesses.  Well the only strengths I have are typing skills and writing skills.  Oh I thought of one off the of my head is Fast Learner and creative.  If you can think of a different example, then go for it!   But that was my interprentation of it!