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I totally agree with this about writing down thoughts and that it helps release stress, and clarifies thoughts.  I am hoping that writing down my thoughts and ideas might help me for future reference when I get an apartment or do something like dance classes but I can't do that because I spend too much money.  Plus, I need to be able to talk to do that.  I don't make rules. Those rules are just there to make me safe.  

Here I go again, having conversations with people in my head.  This time is with my sister.  I don't think it sounded good at all.  It didn't make any sense.  I don't know, it was about netflix and guided meditations and certain sitcoms that I watch.  

The dream I had last night was awesome.  I dreamed that I overcame selective mutism.  My family was hearing me chatting away!   The second part of my dream was when I dreamed about Manuel.  My ex-boyfriend in California.  I would have loved to see a "what if" just to see where it would go but somehow Manuel's mom did not like me at all.  I think it was just because I have selective mutism.  I know how to explain it now if he ever wants to talk to me again.  Just to get this all out in the open.....  I loved the shit out of him!  I loved him because he was so positive and sweet.  If he would have given me half a chance, I would have figured out how to explain selective mutism eventually.  In the dream, all me and Manuel did was kiss and mess around and stuff like that. I loved Manuel more than I loved AJ.  Sorry AJ.  AJ is positive and sweet too but I got to touch Manuel!   I want to say this one more ti...

If you could have a billboard somewhere with a quote of yours, what would it be? I doubt people would let me to this but my quote would be "I may have selective mutism but I am certainly not stupid"!  

Today, (monday september 23) I woke up with neck and shoulders tension.  Now I am trying to find a meditation or stretch for those areas.  I still love my cardio though.  I will be doing a meditation for neck and shoulders in a lying down position.   A few minutes ago while I was on the toilet, I thought about something that I thought when I was like 12 or 13.  I still kept thinking that thought when I was 14 and 15 years old.  I finally stopped thinking that when I was 16.    It was kind of weird but funny.  I thought my boobs were going to fall off either when I'm in the shower or I would lose them down the toilet.  I realized that when I was 16 that they weren't going to fall off.  They better not fall off.  LOL!   That was a horrible thought when I was 12.  No, they won't ever fall off unless I get breast cancer or something.  Hopefully, that will not ever happen.  How would you prevent breast ...