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I will only say this one time so listen up.  I believed that and no one had to tell me ANYTHING that these things are in fact Tourette Syndrome. Am I right?   I really didn't plan on getting that stuff.  But that snorting (what i did the first time back in 2018)  and lip-farting (back in May 2014) make a lot of sense to me.  NO ONE HAD TO TELL ME ANYTHING!  I can swear to you that I did not look up back in 2018.  And Mr dummy here had pointed it out to me that I was making that noise. Thank you very much, Jason! (As I say sarcastically, well I tried to say that sarcastically--it didn't work)  Why do we get these little things or noises that pop up about well it feels like it is every five seconds?  It feels like I have to make that noise but at the same time it is aggravating to me.  Meditations and yoga helps with this sort of thing.  Actually I think yoga and aerobic exercise helps a lot better than meditation.  I love t...

Selective mutism is primarily considered an anxiety disorder rather than a form of physical pain. However, it can be emotionally and psychologically painful for those who experience it.  The intense anxiety and fear associated with selective mutism can lead to significant distress and discomfort 1 2 3 . If you’re exploring this topic for personal growth or understanding, it might be helpful to consider how anxiety and emotional pain manifest in different ways. How do you feel about the impact of anxiety on your own life? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ************************** ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Selective mutism feels like emotional pain to me. I feel like I can't speak to people or even can't find the words to say. Often, I probably do say the wrong thing by accident or even say too much.  Selective mutism feels like a lump in my throat all the time that I can't get loose no matter how much water I drink.  I'm not done with this journal prompt yet. 

I have developed something call this dam lip-fart or rasberries.  There will be a lot of  "I'm sorry" and "Excuse me".  That is about all I can do or say for right now.   A lot of the times I don't even know that I'm doing it. I feel like I have to do that--whatever that is.  It's funny but at the same time it is not funny.  It's funny but it's not funny.  I am looking it up on official sites.   I say it's from stress and anxiety.  My friend James says it's from a habit.  Who is right?   Whatever is causing me stress and anxiety, I don't doubt it.  Now I do twirl my hair around my finger but then I realized that I was losing hair when I did it though.  The last time I did twirl my hair around my finger was the Friday before Hurricane Harvey.  I twirled my hair around my finger a few times but I wouldn't doubt that something was causing me stress and anxiety when they were fixing up the house.  And ...

I wonder if it would be a good idea if I turned my bedroom into a nice living room?  I mean all I would need a sofa turned into bed, and bed turned into a sofa.  Or would it be too much of a hassle?  Well since I will never be able to afford an apartment or house.  This is all I could ever ask for in my life.   The  NKOTB - Still Kids  album is for my own personal use incase I lose everything on my computer.  Well I have the cd though but there is always that chance there could be a hurricane and someone steals it.  Well I could always buy a new one.  So I didn't think about that.  Okay, so.  I just wanted to be able to find it and get to it easier.  :)  

Originally written on: July 11, 2013   Written by:  Pamela Please note: The character Gertrude in this story I picked it because like the name. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~********************************~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   Susanne and Rebecca are the biggest fans of the most famous boy band in recorded history. On a cool fall day in October, Susanne saw a crowd outside and called Rebecca over to see it. When they got closer, they saw who it was and squealed with glee. Rebecca started to run down to meet up with them, but Susanne stopped her. "No, you're not going out there," she said. "I would just wait until it is the right time. I suggest that you wait. How would you feel if someone rushed up to you, got in your face and commenced screaming?" "You're right," Rebecca said, "I would feel uncomfortable." Dylan Knight was recording songs for his upcoming CD. He was an intelligent young adult in his early 20s with a passion for singing. He started si...

I wasn't sure why my boyfriend said he needed to talk.  So I listened.  He was the one who broke things off with me.  Then he tells me that as he was trying to get up, he does not want me to see him struggling.  Struggling with what?  I thought to myself as I said okay as I said out loud that I have pee.  I want to know what he is struggling with?  What is he struggling with?  I thought to myself as I walked to the bathroom.  As I got up from the toilet, I came back and saw that he was gone but left a message.  I guess his family needed him.   I still don't get why he left?  Did he leave because of my poorly mental health?  Did he leave because of me?  Did he leave because of what I have done?  This I may never know.  

“What are three qualities you admire most in others? How do you see these qualities in yourself?” I love the honesty and kindness in other people.  Because I don't see these qualities in myself.  I see myself as a pure asshole.  If someone who has honesty and kindness in their heart can show me that I am or have honesty and kindness, can someone please tell me that I have these two qualities.  Thank you. “Describe a time when you overcame a significant challenge. What did you learn about yourself through that experience?” Overcome what?  I haven't overcome selective mutism yet.  Once I overcome SM, everyone who knows me is invited to this party.   “If you could spend a day doing anything you wanted, without any limitations, what would you do? What does this reveal about your passions and interests?” Anything I wanted?  Anything?  Renting an apartment for 6 years.  But that is just a coverup for what I really want to do is take an ac...