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Write down 4 things (in pencil) that you would like to change about yourself. 1.)  To get rid of my fat gut.  (i think that I got my fat gut from hanging around Jason. lol His belly is contagious.)  But really.  Do you really think this is from menopausal belly fat?   2.)  To tone up my arms. 3.)   4.) Write down 4 things that you love about yourself.  1.) I love my butt. 2.) I love my legs. 3.) I love the way that I am losing weight. (thumbs up) one or two pounds a week. The safe way to go!  4.) 

I would love to have the opportunity to... speak to people and get a job and be able to act out in a play. But I think people would take advantage of me just like they always have.  I want to act out in a play or see if I can do something that has to do with selective mutism and spreading awareness.   But...... How am I going to ask to do this?  I know the first thing that people will say..... You gotta be able to talk to do that!  ugh!  I hate when people say that.  I could play a person who is selectively mute until I become a little more comfortable and then I can play someone who is just overcoming selective mutism and is spreading awareness to other people to make them understand the disorder a lot better.  

One thing that is important to know about me is... that I have selective mutism.  I guess that I am different than others living with selective mutism.  Well, I do get to do things but I am only very limited(i think).  Unlike other individuals living with selective mutism, I can't get a job, I have to live with my parents forever.  I guess the rules are different in this house and I am going to have to accept it whether I like it or not.   I'm still writing here.  

Writing Prompt: Google search.  What’s one goal you have that you’ve never shared with anyone? One thing that I haven't shared with anyone yet was time that when a movie came out in the 80's It was called Flash Dance.  I couldn't watch it because it was rated R and I was only about 7 or 8 back then.  Right then I wanted to become a dancer.  I couldn't because I was too young to become a dancer.  Also when I heard the song "she's a maniac" I think that if could learn to dance and be a dancer. I also wanted to sing and be an actress. I didn't know how to go about it.  Again I say.....  I may have selective mutism but I'm certainly not stupid!  I definitely knew what movies were and I definitely knew what actors and singers I liked back then. It was Whitney Houston.  I loved her powerful voice back in the 80's.   I would like to give my inner child the option to dance, sing or act but I don't know how to go about it.  Ho...

" You are capable of anything you want to achieve" Well apparently no one has ever had selective mutism in my family! ugh! I would like to find out where my selective mutism came from! My grandmother on my mom's side of the family or my dad's real mother--Katherine Rogers? It was probably the reason why my dad was dropped off at the doorstep of my great-grandmother Alice Margaret.(however you spell it) Either one of those two may have had selective mutism or could have been just anxiety and not selective mutism and then I want to find out the root cause of selective mutism and also find out if my selective mutism was a trauma for me. I am pretty sure that it was. Yes, I would remember it and I do remember parts of when I was 2 and parts of stuff when I was 3 some of which my grandmother told me. My quote of "I'll drive grandma" as I ran out to the car. I so wanted to learn to drive as soon as I got old enough and now I can't due to one of ...

I didn't think I was eating to much cheese or drinking too much milk.  Now I know I was eating too much ice cream.  Now I do make my own dip and then get some carrots.  I really think it is due to anxiety disorders that is causing my cholesterol and blood pressure to go up.  Does anxiety have anything to do with my cholesterol going up?   On a scale from one to 10 and ten being the worst and one being not at all. I would say that the anxiety was about a 10 last night and two nights ago.  I guess I can say that loud noises make me anxious.  Then again I am okay with thunder.  I absolutely hate and am really terrified of lightning.   15 minutes is up. I maybe writing more here. But I exercise not only that but I exercise 1 to 1/2 hours of exercise!  I didn't think I was eating that much cheese or well I knew I was eating ice cream.  Do you even know how triggered I am because of this?!