Thursday May 23, 2024 | Why I never spoke for several years and decades?

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You can either believe me or not when I talk about this. That your belief NOT mine!  I hope that I remember all of this. If I don't, please don't sue me.  Like I said, you can either listen to this or not. The video below triggered this memory.  Stupid I know but that's just my stupid ass and how my brain works.  Well I like I said, my family has their beliefs and I have mine about what happened in kindergarten that first day.  

A kid in my class back then told me that I was weird for asking such questions, but that was no reason to stop talking to people.  The kid's name was Paul Beaumont.  He didn't like what I said that first day so he started teasing me all the time.  I am wondering if I was talking when I entered kindergarten back in 1979.  At least I think I was in kindergarten back in 1979.  I will never let that kid live that one down that he was once back then. Well now he's a fully grown man.  I say that because it's a name of a song.  

I still to this day think that people will think that I don't have anything good to say.  You can either believe me or not.  This is my belief about me and you have your beliefs about me!!!







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  1. Pamela AnnMay 24, 2024 at 5:18 PM

    yeah, that video up there triggered that memory that I wrote down.

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