Sunday August 20, 2023 | friends with a contractor guy

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I didn't know what title to give this.  And I don't know what to say but this guy started messaging me on my 'Pamela's SM Journey' page and I have come to like him alot.  He is in his 40's and he is a contractor.  


Contractor?  I am remembering TJ the asshole contractor after tropical storm Harvey! ugh! I knew TJ was bad news and a crook but I couldn't say anything.  My dad was going to do what he was going to do.  But TJ was just my bad feeling and creeped up there anxiety.  After Harvey took everything my parents had owned except for the clothes on their back. My dad met this contractor on the street. (something had happened between here. I am not sure) but what I do know is that TJ Martin took my parents money left my parents house half finished of what Harvey had damaged including the stairs and the front door.  Well they got the front door in, but the stairs are left unfinished.  I don't think that there is ever going to be carpet on the stairs.  Enough about that asshole TJ Martin!  That blood pressure is creeping up there. And with my anxiety too. Okay. This helps to just talk about it.  


His name is Larson Henry and he is in his 40's and he is a constractor and he is currently in Turkey where he works.  He is from Corona, California.  Still, I want to know more about him but I don't know how to ask. I like him a lot.  That anxiety (SM) is on alert and I'm not putting my guard down yet.  


I am pretty positive that there are no red flags.  He is just a positive person from California.  We both have a lot in common.  Like writing poems.  Does he like to write journal prompts?  I want to do another video chat with him.  I don't know why but I do like him a lot.  He's hot! 




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