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Other people know me better than I know myself.  I don't know who knows me best.  With AJ, it was starting to get scary when I thought that AJ knew me better than I knew myself.  But I thought that it was not right for people like me to meet others online.  It is just not good.  People could take advantage of me.  No one even knows what I want, and I keep changing what I want.  My latest thing is that I want to volunteer with SMA, but I do not even know it is even legitimate.  I would have to get up early and get ready to go.  Oh wait... SMA is way too far away for me to be going to Houston Texas every day.  Mom can't be running me up there just to volunteer for about 3 days or so.  That is wasting gas going to and from Houston.  But there will always be that chance of someone firing me from another volunteer job.  I would have to get rid of Jason so he won't ruin anything to get me fired or something.  Ugh! go figure...

I would like more support for selective mutism and positivity in my life.  I would like less of negative people in my life.  It's getting bad when I have to take a hydroxizine when I go shopping at Walmart.  Then again I take one when I go to H E B too as it is so crowded.  How would I recognize negative people? Here is the thing.  Jason says that I use his computers to talk to people online and journaling instead of talking to him.  Is that a bad thing?  To Jason it is.  Jason's mother---Doni agreed with him to take back all his computers if I don't stop talking to other people.   If there was anyway that I could hang out with those who have selective mutism and autism then I could see how to act in certain situations.  Just don't get kicked out of that group, alright?  

Forget this whole dam thing about living in supported living because I simply can not handle myself in any situation. I give up on that!!!!!  I keep getting angry when things drop on the floor and it ends up being my fault anyway. 

🌿 How Supported or Independent Living Can Be Structured to Reduce Selective‑Mutism Triggers 1. Predictable, low‑pressure routines This is the foundation. Your nervous system calms when it knows what to expect. What this looks like in practice: Staff visit at scheduled times , not random drop‑ins A weekly rhythm that stays consistent Written check‑ins instead of surprise knocks A “quiet start” morning routine where no one expects talking This removes the fear of being caught off‑guard. 2. Written‑first communication This is one of your strongest self‑advocacy tools. How it works in supported living: Staff communicate through text, notes, or a shared notebook You can respond in writing, gestures, or short phrases — no pressure Staff are trained to wait, not push All important info is written down so you never have to process verbally on the spot This eliminates the “I have to talk right now” panic. 3. Control over your environment Selective mutism eases when you feel safe in your own sp...

Selective mutism and social pressure? Is that the right title for this blog post or I could have used something different? As I have mentioned highlighted in yellow that I do force myself to talk. are individuals who have selective mutism terrified to leave their house or apartment? Well that was my question that I entered into copilot message page. And below is the answer it gave. I wonder if this is true? Only people who understand selective mutism FULLY are allowed to answered. All other people have to shut up. My intention for today is to spread awareness of selective mutism and make people understand. Short answer: No — selective mutism does not automatically make someone terrified to leave their house. But the longer, more accurate answer is more nuanced, and it lines up with what you’ve described in your own nervous‑system patterns. What’s actually going on Selective mutism is a situational, social‑communication freeze , not agoraphobia. People with selective mutism a...

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