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Friday December 26, 2025 | Mindfully listen. How often you craft a response before the other person completes their thought? Today I will uncomplicate my life by reducing the stress and lowering the anxiety.  Meditating three times per day could be beneficial to me.  The truth was, is and always will be free.  

 

Not being able to do things on my own.  I can't drive and their is no bus line out where I live at.  It is  important for me to learn to live alone in an apartment .  I have learned my lesson not to let anyone  spend the night in my apartment ever again.  I have learned my lesson.  Why do I have to listen to my parents when they tell me stuff like this.  When the city of Beaumont clearly says that I am an adult!  But the city of Beaumont doesn't have to live with me, am I right?   I feel like I am leaving things out.  Am I?  

If I had a magic wand , I would make selective mutism disappear from every one of us who has it and the problems it has caused us!  But I would still be like I am now.  Afraid to move and afraid to do anything for myself.  There is that thing called getting into trouble that is part of selective mutism.  

I would like to say support but I don't think I have any of that.  I would have loved to have support whenever I was first diagnosed with selective mutism when I was 4.  Everyone thought it was my fault.  People kept thinking that it was refusal to speak.  It was not refusal to speak.  It is clearly an anxiety disorder where a person who is normally able to speak does not speak in certain situations or to certain people.  If mom would have listened what I heard on Wikipedia back in 2012 then she would have known that too.  But I am grateful for the basic things like a roof over my head, clothes on my back, money to buy stuff and finding money in a book when I thought that I lost that $10 bill.  (i actually did find a 10 dollar bill in a book)  I was going to give it to Goodwill and something told me to flip through the book and I found a $10 dollar bill.  I am so grateful that my guardian angel told me to flip through the book. ...

Is it normal to feel challenged by people saying that it's your weight that is making your knee hurt?  It is mostly my left knee because that is the same knee that I sprained back in 2007 .  Mom may not remember it because it didn't happen to her.  I was the one who sprained my knee exercising back in 2007.  How would I ever be or feel supported?  That was back when I really didn't have hardly any room to maneuver around and exercise in that little bitty room that I have now.  I think it is time for another change.  But how would I convince someone to let me move into an apartment and even right next door to mom and dad.  My question is what would happen when mom and dad were to move into a nursing home ?  I bet they would probably make me go live with my sister which I don't want to.  This would make this even more an importance that I should really do things by myself.  But how?  I need to do this myself even if it means ...