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Can muscle be caused by severe anxiety ?  I know that I exercise moderately and to PahlaB . She doesn't make workout videos anymore.  She didn't want to be telling us one thing and then turning around and doing another.  You can lose weight without even exercising at all.   I choose to exercise because I love to exercise.  I exercise only for my mental health.  It just feels so good on my muscles.  Here is the thing...... my muscles feel better and don't hurt at all while I am working out, but they hurt me later.  I found peppermint essential oil , and not to mention lavender oil , for anxiety.  I use peppermint body wash for severe muscle pain/muscle tension .  But recently, I have found dr teal's vanilla comfort .  It has ginger and cardamom in it.  I'm not familiar with cardamom, but ginger works well on my muscles.  I only use eucalyptus.  I would be careful because eucalyptus can trigger a panic attack, w...

I don't think I even have any strengths or talents.  I probably never got to articulate them at all in my life because I was scared to.  Why was I afraid to? Perhaps because when I was about 9 or 10 years old, I heard the story of how my sister got yelled at because she wanted to go to the skating rink and mom wouldn't let her.  I was still in the hospital in Galveston .  This is why I never saw it or the outburst that mom and my sister had.  It was really for her own good.  When we are young we never really think about what could happen to us all that we want to do is do what our friends wanted to do.  I never had friends like that.  My friends were caring.  I remember when I was walking home from school in the rain when I was in the 3rd grade.  Jennifer,  my childhood best friend wanted to see if I was okay.  She actually had me put my feet in a warm bucket of water.  At the time, I couldn't understand why she did that...

I would have to say that exercise energizes me.  Can social gatherings drain a person's energy ?  I am not sure what drains my energy.  All I know is that I have to meditate to reset my nervous system and also calm my immune system .   I did find quite a few meditations on Insight Timer for calming the immune system.  No joke.  

I don't know, lots of people said different things about what my strengths are.  Most of them were negative.  Do I have empathy ?  Am I creative ?  Am I lazy ?  Do I have emotions and feelings ?  I don't know.   

I never got to do what I wanted. I was afraid of doing anything inappropriate.  When I was much younger, the people older than me sometimes said that I was inappropriate at times. My mom blames those teachers at the schools that I went to. 😨  I want to know if that was right. 

I had one panic attack the first time I had an mri done on my breasts and then cried.  Then the second time I had an mri done on my breasts, I had another panic attack.  I tried to do deep breathing exercises and meditation but that machine was so loud that I couldn't concentrate on the meditation.   Plus I am in perimenopause and I had a hotflash and a an anxiety attack in there.  So double whammy!  Here is the proud moment.  I was moving my feet and they stopped the machine for a moment then I said that I was hot.  I said quiet a few words to her.   Lots of sensory issues .  It was noisy and small.  I hate noisy things, and then I don't like heights.